same mistakes...over n over again...

read on an article via internet last week..can't remember d url address..n which site..it mentioned on how people always stuck at d same mistakes over n over again...good to be read by all..unfortunately..xdpt nak cari blk article tuh..search jek la sendiri..skang sume kat ujung jari...

it was a good article i must say..good for self note..hoping dat i will not do d same mistakes (yg mane sedar la)...briefly...it talks about how people got stuck wit d wrong people...wrong job..wrong decision making..n wrong finance management!!

huwaaa...sume nye mcm menepek kat muke..wrong people tuh..maybe because we r too attach wit dat person..n we found dat is hard nak take any action utk beladiri etc..kan kan kan..wut if we might hurt them back..without knowing dat we are d one dats being hurt...this is too subjective..depends on d relationship....bak kate ustzh norbayah...ape pon..doa..doa...doa..n teruskan berdoa....bak kate dr muhaya plak..kalau kite jahat..Allah akan temukan kite ngan org jahat gak..n kalau kite baek..Allah akan temukan kite ngan org2 baek jgak n elakkan kite drpd bertemu ngan org2 jahat neh..

wrong job..ha...sendiri kene menilai le camne interest diri tuh kan..either u want to learn how 2 enjoy doing ur work..or put ur whole effort to find another job...dont blame urself 4 sumthing dat u dont want to do..n of course..dat comes with luck too..nak seribu daye..xnk seribu dalih..

wrong finance management...hmm..sgt byk berlaku amongst my friends n of coz..i'm included!! too many irresistible temptations d pasaran skang neh..ngan asakan kehidupan yg menyogok utk semue org berblanje sakan..org laen ade neh...kite pon nak ade neh..pantang tgk mende baru..org neh enjoy mcm neh..kite pon nak enjoy camneh...lupe nak ukur baju kat bdn sdiri...at the end..sendiri tanggung beban...aiyak..mane nak korek duet neh..tabungan pon da maken kering...so..tgk aje la mane2 yg baru tuh..cuci mate jek la yg boleynye...

wrong decision making..of all these points stated above...adlh bersangkut paut dgn decision making..YES...ape yg jd adlh dsbbkan pilihan kte..we decide our own ending story..kdgkale kite x pasan kite made mistakes..but people around us saw wut happend on us..n when they try nak betau dgn jujurnye..well..ego mengatasi sgalenye..sbg manusie..kite sendiri ssh nak ditegur...n then kte akan cr plak slh org tuh.."ko pehal lak nak nasehat aku..ko sdiri pon x betol"........"oh nona2..zmn sekarang..tak boleh di tegor..tak boleh dilarang"...tetibe teringat lagu dolu2 neh..by r. azmi kot..ntah..x hengat..wish i can quote sebijik2 ayat ust azhar idrus regarding this..tp lupe nak record lak..aiyak! dats d reason y we keep on making d same mistakes jdnye...sbb..bile org laen remind..kite tolak mentah2...siap marah lagek..sape yg slh??sudahnye..sape yg susah...???org yg tegor kite ke yg ssh??tepat!! mmg org tuh yg ssh..sbb die ssh2 jek nak tegor kte..kte yg xnk amek peduli.. -_-

wrong ape lagek ek....?ntah ar...lupe da....isk...yg penting kene muhasabah diri n teruskan beristiqamah...jgn letakkan slh pd org laen..cermin diri dulu..rase x cukop cermin tuh..g kedai cermin..nak yg free..g jusco pon ade cermin besar!!!

last monday...ust azhar idrus ade dtg berceramah kt menara TM...huwaa...mengambil kesempatan ats kehadiran beliau..punye la ramai yg nak bersalaman ngan beliau..sume tuh tau nak rebot pahale tgk wajah org alim..mmg bergune..peruntukan mase 1jm stgh tuh dirasekan mcm baru 30 min berlalu...gelak2 tuh..gelak jugak...tp ilmu tuh sumenye manfaat...style la ustaz...

mendidik jiwe

assalam..

tbe2 rase emo sket arinih..xtau nape..pre to PMS maybe...

sy kene berlatih nmendidik diri supaye

1. bersabar  - jumpe org yg laen2 prangainye..pe'el pon laen2..sabar ngan karenah org..sabar ngan ujian ats ape yg org buat kat kite...

2. menerime kelemahan/kekuatan org laen - satu sikap yg ssh manusie nak didik diri sendiri..sbb pecaye diri tuh hebat kan..so anggap org laen hampes..n xleh terime dek akal...kelemahan org itu..maybe merupekan kekuatan die yg Allah kurniekan..kite xtau..at least-she or he is unique in her/his own  way

3. menerime yg org laen pon ade org laen - meaning...bkn takat ade org ketige.. kempat.. kelime.. keenam... keseratus...hmmm..contoh terbaek adlh ahli keluarge beliau..ade tanggungjawab yg beliau kene laksanekan..kite org baru..kene blaja terime keadaan tuh...jgn letakkan beban lebey pd beliau..*wpon diri ini perlukan perhatian lebey ~ gedis!!!!

4. bak kate shbt..ape yg jd kat kite skang neh adlh choices we've made..ape yg jd kat org laen plak adlh choice diorg..hmm..so maseng2 kehidupan mestilah x same..contoh..aku yg dah tue neh (tue sgt ke???) x kawen lagek sbb aku pilih nak idop berpoye2 lebey lame...whereas girls dat r younger than me yg dahkawen..sbb they've made their choice to end kehidupan berpoye2 diorg earlier dr aku..so..ape nak kesah org laen kawen awal..*yes..noted dat!!!

5.memilih kate2 - ini penting utk tdk mengguris hati mane2 pihak..wpon kdg kale tereksiden gak kate2 yg x sepatutnye kluar dr mulot neh...as u grow older..u should learn to be wiser too..

6.menjage hati sume org/hati sendiri - mmg la bak kate pepatah..bercinte biar satu..berkawan biar seribu...hmm..mmg elok pon kwn ade ramai..tp..yg sshnye nak jage hati sume org yg kite syg neh...kang org neh kate..kite ngan org laen ade jek mase..hmm...sesungguhnye...mase sy sungguh terhad..tanggungjawab sy dgn keluarge lebey besar...nak keluar ngan abe syg sebln skali pon payah..hmmm...anda xtau ape yg terbuku dlm hati sy..nak sy luahkan prasaan n masalah sy pon sy xsanggup n x brani..nnt kate..time ssh br nak cari...huuu...korg pon time ssh jek cari aku kan..sng...?korg sng ngan org laen...huhuuuuu..*noda2 itam d dlm hati -_-

7. spy menjadi diri sdiri, bk diri org laen - kalau ditengokkan persekitaran..ngan perkembangan fesyen n tekno neh..ape org laen ade..sume kite nak kan..?berjaye la setan menghasud manusie camtuh..,,ukur baju d bdn sendiri wahai hani...tingkatkan amalan mu itu..tdk sume perkare itu mdpt approval syariat...fesyen pon...kate utk muslimah....tapiiiiiiii....hmm...xsempurne lagek..menghalalkan sesuatu perkare yg menggunekan name yg halal...hmm?

ya Allah...smoge Kau pelihare IMAN ku..akhlak ku..lidah ku..akal ku..diri ku...dan MARUAH ku...

*byk lagek yg perlu kene didik dlm diri ini...ngaji dah jarang..adusss....perlu tingkatkan kerajinan!!!

mode : cinta d dlm udara!!

Tsunami rindooo

Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia
Untuk terima ku seadanya
Kerna ku tak sanggup
Kerna ku tak mampu
Hidup tanpa dia di sisi ku

Tuhan aku tahu banyak dosa ku
Hanya ingat Kamu kala duka ku
Namun hanya Kamu yang mampu membuka
Pintu hatinya untuk cintaku

Malam kau bawalah rinduku
Untuk dirinya yang jauh dari ku
Agar dia tidak kesepian
Selalu rasa ada cinta agung

Hujan bawa air mata ku
Yang mengalir membasuh luka ku
Agar dia tahu ku terseksa
Tanpa cinta dia di hatiku

Hanya mampu terserah
Moga cahaya di penanti


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enuf..enuf,,,enuf.....hukhuk..kemarok dgn lagu neh lps tgk cite ombak rindoo..oohhh..apekah...?as usual...hani ngan cite berair mate neh..kompem la jgak berair mate...xdpt dipisahkan...oh..rapuh sungguh hati ini....*gediss

yg bestnye..rakan sekongkol yg same2 nonton pon nanges gak...muahahah...shbtku azrina...sungguh x kusangke..tanggal 1-12-2011 merupekan tanggal keramat saat ko mintak tisu kat aku...hahaha...xleh tahan aku mase tuh..drpd sedey nak meleleh airmate..jd gelak plak....

lirik lagu ini sgt best...boley dijadikan doa juge kpd psgn berkaseh/suami isteri etc..

best line... - cinta itu tak kejam..tp cuma manusia yg tak tau menghargai cinta.... adesss

beliau gelak jek bile aku story aku nangeh..haih....sebok nak tgk gak..konon die kate nak tgk..sedey mane sgt cite tuh...huk..tunggu la anda nnt...so we set our date tomorrow nite indeed...heheh...*windu kamoo oledi..

buhbye..peace out!!

december has turned up!!! nak kawen!!!!

whoaaa...! Assalam n greetings all!! cewah..bajet ade followers yg x berbelah bahagi kesetiaan mereke..welllll...been quite long la kan tdk menaip kat laman sesawang ini..oh...mmg da bersawang pon...agak merindu...to be frank..quite few attempts utk menaip b4 this..da taip jek...simpan...delete...pastuh create laen..simpan...delete...n d life cycle continues...sampai la skang neh..

ok..sblm tuh..penerangan sket...pls don't misunderstood psl tajok tuh..bkn haku yg nak kawen..tp menjelangnye december..ramai la hamba Allah akan bersatu dlm ikatan yg sah..Alhamdulillah...smoge kekal bahgie ke akhir hayatla di doakan kpd para shbt n saudare mare yg akan menjalinkan ikatan yg suci itu...maklumla kan...coti skolah..so sume rebut2 tarikh neh.. every week aku kenyang ngan ns minyak jek...wauweee...turn aku bile??wallahua'lam...Allah jek maha mengetahui..too soon to tell...too far to think..ngeh3...

penulisan ini dilakukan sambel nonton ustazah pilihan akhir...touched n moved by d topic...--kawen kat songklha..hoho...kawen kat memane pon...slagek x dpt keredhaan n restu ibu bapa.tiade lah maknenye kebahgiaan dunie akhirat tuh...mencintai makhluk laen melebihi drpd pencipta sehingge sanggup membelakangi ibu bape yg termaktub syurga bersame mereke...Allah maha mengetahui..

remind me of a true story shared by makcik yg membersihkan opis kitorg dgn hebatnye...psl adek beliau yg kawen kat songkla..20 mins from their hometown jek..sbb tuh la mudah die nak g sane..weird part..both tuh bkn la suami org ke..tentangan kuarge ke...yg nak jd penyebab kawen kat luar ngr tuh...reason nak kawen kat sane adlh dsbbkan xmo ssh kan kuarge..hadoiiiii..nak kate mude sgt umo ko tuh..sebaye aku jek..patot leh pk la kan..perkare baek..kan best share ngan family..lebey bermakne gitu...nauzubillah hi minzalik..betape besarnye keaiban yg ditanggung oleh keluarge...tambahan plak..tok imam kat area tuh..pak sedare...astagfirullah...hmm..smoge ini dijadikan sempadan....*note to self...

smoge Allah bg hidayah kpd mereke2 ini...n dibukekan pintu taubat...pd yg terfikir2 nak buat..pls don't think twice...think million timess...istikharati ya ukhti....smoge Allah memberi ptunjuk kpd kamoo...dan sy juge... :) maruah kamoo..maruah keluarge juge...

wallahua'lam....

Syawal yg stuffed!!

Alhamdulillah...after a blissful Ramadhan had passed...here is d beautiful Syawal has appeared...nothing special compared to last year celebration..it was even more dull than before..juz both of me n mom celebrated at kampong together with other relatives...tuh pon ala2 menumpang kaseh..it was sad moment i must say...

as usual..common routine nite before raye...doa selamat n tahlil among family members....after that...bermaaf2an session...uu..sayu sungguh hati ini..mengaler2 airmate sy n bonda when we're hugging wit each other...mohon ampun sgale dose2 yg ade from d day i was born till now..bukan kate berbakol2 lagek...berguni2...bertan2 dose yg aku buat kat parents..astaghfirullah al azim...smoge Allah ampunkan dose aku..untungla pd mereke2 yg awal lagek da xde parents...dose might be sket je...as long as mereke menjage maruah mereke ....ur parents are still going to be punished dlm kubur kalau anak2 mereke membuat sesuatu perkare yg menlanggar syariat..wallahua'alam..too long to detail here...google laa sendiri.. ~ dose2 anak kpd ibu bapa yg telah meninggal dunia..byk woo

umah yg open pon byk...this year...mantan rakan sekerje siap buat list tiap2 mlm nak serbu umah sape..happening...a bit tired tho.....sbb esoknye nak keje...it takes me 4o min juz in train journey jek...compared ngan diorg yg hny memkn mase 10 min nek keter... *envy uols dem much!!

as for my relationship progress....hmm...dunno wut to say...too complicated to tell..if he's d one...he'll be d one...enuf said...still seeking for petunjuk drNya...may Allah send His guidance upon me...amin... :)

bLissfull Ramadhan

alhamdulillah...bertemu lagek dgn ramadhan al-mubarak..ihya ramadhan... :) dah nak dkt habes pon...br nak post entry..nothing much i did for this ramadhan...bertape ruginye aku...ya Allah...smoge ko jgn putuskan nikmatMu ke ats ku yg slalu alpa ini....

barakah d bln ramadhan...semuenye tlh sy luahkan n berterus terang dgn keluarge...far than i expected..huhu..alhamdulillah.penerimaan yg sgt baek..smoge dipermudahkan lagek urusan2 yg akan dtg....padeMu ku pinta petunjuk dan keyakinan ya Allah...

raye bakal tibe...sume disiapkan secare sederhane jek..da  besar kan..wut else to think..? kene bg duet raye jek la..dulu menerime...kini memberi...wpon kene paw ngan adek2 sedare n anak2 sedare...tp rase sgt berharge...ukhwah yg terjalen tu penting......looking forward for this upcoming raye...wpon x brape meriah (agaknye le)..sbb abg2 beraye d rumah mertue msg2...abah plak...blk d pg raye..hmm....dunno how laa...

smoge dipermudahkan sgale urusan...dan jauh drpd sebarang musibah ya Allah rabbul jalil....

3rd July 2011

Alhamdulillah....bertemu lagek dgn tanggal 3 july....barakah...26 tahun...tahun neh...ade insan yg x dpt cecah usie ni pon....

late entry this year..sbb xde prasaan nak menaip..

umo maken bertmbh..tp..amalan bertmbh jugekah?tepuk dada..tny iman...ya Allah...jgn Engkau putuskan nikmatMu ke ats ku...jgn Engkau palingkan rahmatMu drpd ku...smoge aku sentiase dkt dgnMu..sentiase kasihkanMu..sentiase rindukanMu...

Alhamdulillah..hadiah terbsar dan bermakne taun neh...dpt keje baru..berkat kesabaranku slame neh...wpon jauh..tp permanent..berbaloi....ade yg br kontrak..msg2 lalui jalan idop yg laen....wpon lame status "L"...tp aku yakin Allah akan bg jgak satu hari nnt...sptmane aku saba nak sambung degree dulu...byk hikmahnye...

agak sedey la nak tinggalkan tmpt lame...org2 die yg buat sy sedey...huhu...suasanenye pon sy rindukan..bertape akrabnye ukhwah dc2...hmm...tmpt baru....baru la pule suasanenye..furthermore..i'm d new face here..so of coz la i'm a total stranger to them..xpe..let time goes by...

koje...hmm...totally berbeza drpd keje lame..loadssss of new thing..sbenanye xde la new..tp da lame kutinggalkan lps degree dolu..huwa....kene menelaah blk camneh....

my bday...bejln2 n berlibur bersame teman2..hehe..tgk muvie..sampai ngaler airmate..naseb baek ade geng...kan anis kan...ngeee....nak buat guano...hati neh kristal okeh...

wut else to write?dunno...will be post for d next entry maybe...

daaaa

Elin's wedding - johoreeeeeee~~

Alhamdulillah..juz got back from jb....attend wedding elin...n me...as d bride's maid...cewah....c gumuks neh pon leh d pilih mnjd bride's maid...pasti mnjd bahan bualan org kan...

okeh...1st at work on monday..as usual...monday blues...kepenatan semlm maseh trase..ya Allah...jauh perjalanan aku semlm..sejauh 400 km lebey...rase mcm dah sampai perlis....dgn jam...hujan....complete la utk melambatkan perjlnn yg sedie ade neh....singgah lcct dulu..anta shbt pulang ke kg halaman....then ke puncak utk menghantar sorg lagek shbt...huuu...lame x lalu jln scary tuh memlm....eerie okeh.......

berikut adlh sdkt sebyk pics yg sempat diambil oleh sy..menggunekan cam phone sy yg murah n dah rosak neh...syukur everything went well as planned...

~ camwhoring ~

smoge kalian bedue kekal bahgie hingge ke akhir hayat....ameen..... :)

bln kesedihan

uwaa...kesedihan la sgt....it was all stated bile tgk gambo juniors yg convo utk master..at 1st...we were together in d same class...same lecturers...same classmates...huhu....sedey bile terpakse mengambil keputusan utk quit...mase n kewangan yg x brape nak memberi kelebihan di situ....

kalau aku continue je...perhaps...i'll be joining them too....huhu...tgk ade 2 lines kat robe diorg...huwaaaaa...sedey okeh.....sabar hani..semoge ade rezeki mu d laen hari....hmm....pasneh..few of my frens pon akan convo gak...bertahan la ayor mate mu hani...jgn terlihat oleh mrk kesedihanmu itu...bergembirelah utk mrk....

brite gumbire...

cewah...gedis skejap.........well...i am now sumone's half....wahhhhhh......unsangkarable....nvr cross my mind...xpenah cari...penah mintak la tp..hahah....but this time surely without prior notice....i guess i've mentioned this on my earlier post...smoge makbul doa2 shbt n keluarge .... amin...to early to tell too.....i'm so touched by d sincere confessions...auuuw...angau jap...makes me smile everyday...

juz almost passed half of may.....ok..june is coming up....frens n relatives r queuing to get wed! haha....so happy for them...especially for those who has been quite long in their relationship..great ending..n a great start of a new life for all of them hopefully....my prayers n thoughts r always with them... :) hectic schedule but definitely schedule to be remembered by me! myself.....

as i turned 26 this year...now i feel like i'm "grown up"....of coz la kan...sbb byk received wedding invitation.....meaning..only adults can get married! n i'm an adult too...coz they invites me...n....huh...kompius jap...

stress dlm diam..hurm

okeh..post neh..trase sgt stress pd hari ini...huwaa....persekitaran yg x membina.....hanye tau nak meruntuhkan semangat sepasukan jek....

bile org berkire keje....mmg aku rase xleh blah...u r not perfect...so do i ...dats y we need team utk buat mcm2 keje yg merepek tuh..wpon merepek...tp nak buat camne kan....name pon keje...ianye tetap halal....

dah besar...dah kawen...dah ade anak..sendiri mau igt la kan....camne keberkatan ko nak perolehi dlm mencari nafkah buat org2 tersyg...kalau dr pg sampai punch card blk pon stakat amek angen..baca e-news...bagai.....tepuk dada..tny iman...

psl bos...aku dah xtau nak ckp ape...mmg patot pon la staf die dulu hampir gile....n i'm about to join their group! pfftt

packed schedule - may until july

gile kentang la...lame x buat post.....so okeh....here's d thing.....setiap minggu akan terisi dgn pelbagai agenda...not hidden....terang2an okeh...or maybe there'll be a few to be hid...gegegege

so i'll start my post with latest product yg aku pakai....disbbkan ade senior betau die pakai this medicated shampoo...maka rambut beliau kembali mekar....so i decided to give it a try...mane la tau kan..mane taknye...severe hair loss okeh....lelame butak la jua kepale ku ini....tp yg sedeynye...ianye quite expensive for d prcie of 200ml shampoo...n it cost me more than RM20!! pfffft...nak buek camno kan....haruslah ditanggung demi kesihatan sejagat....n i had my haircut too....huhu..lapang rasenye.....

n for my career...gege....career la sgt...there're bad n good news....tp yg good news nye belom jd kenyatan hingge kini...how i wish that i could be free....hanye Allah yg mengetahui...n d bad...hmm.....as always..cite lame juge yg timbulnye...belum sampai rezeki sy nampaknye...okeh...

seterusnye.....as i mentioned on prior post....hmm.met d new guy....lame dah kenal...hmm..tp hingge kini sy x pecaye yg sy kua dgn die..apekah???haha....still in d process of  knowing each other....adekah ini mimpi..atau kenyataan???oh!!mmg betol la teori ini... - saat dicari takkan jumpe...tak dicari..muncul pula...

heard psl kwn2 punye life...how i wish i could be there for them....sorry my dears....

 i saw sum pictures of him while i'm browsing my fren's pics...hmmm...look so happy beside his other half....kudoakan kamu bahgie sptmane yg kamu hendakkan...smoge tercapai impian n keinginan kamu yea....as i will continue mine as well....

hani berbunge lagek....

sungguh la mengadenye tajuk post kali ini....hahah....sume gare2 kwn sy nasehatkan..."be a flirt"...(dlm byk2 nasehat....nasehat neh gak yg aku pakai kannnnnn)

nampaknye tersangkut lagek...erk.....sy x sengaje...cume...this time....is quite different.....sbb aku yg trsangkut lebey...muahahah....hadoi...xleh blah......rase mcm blushing memanjang...boley?

d way he called me...auuwww......meltinggggg......

naseb la kan..mengharapkan org laen...org buat x tau....

belum tentu lagek pon jodoh sy ngan sape...lagek pon...sy sebok memanjang.....hmmm...jgn kate nak bg mase utk org...utk diri sendiri pon payah....mcm2 perkare dlm otak neh dok pk sbenanye...should i take another step further...or remain as it is...ngeee...poning dah neh...

nevertheless....lame sungguh la x rase keterbangan neh....!!!! i'm flyinggggg withoutttt winggggggggg!!!

windu kamooo....

huhu...windu pd blog sy sbenanye.....been busy lately.....as usual..ntah bile lapangnye..dunno....tp bersyukur...kerana sy busy krn sy miliki kerjaye....camne kalau sy x busy...sbb xde kerjaye..lebey sedey......dah besar(mmg sgt besar) pon nak family tanggung.....uh....

okeh...last month (march)went for d third interview...huwaa...rezeki sy n geng begitu nampaknye...apekan daye...maseh belum tukar status kerakyatan....quite lucky(perhaps)...i was trough d 1st session....successfully entered d 2nd....tp yg sedeynye...sy xde engineering degree..since d jobscope adlh berkaitan telecommunication engineering...but then....made me question....slame neh yg diorg trime aku nape???pulok....berbalek kpd rezeki..qada n qadar yg Allah tetapkan....

one of d panel thoroughly checked  my transcrip....ade la tercatit kat c2...i took japanese as my 3rd language...but that was longggggggggg ago...n i nvr use it anywhere...tgk cite jepon pon dah lame tak...so how do u aspect me to speak nihon like u....ko dok bertapa kat jepon tuh...laen ar cite...sumtimes older/experience people ade kebodohannye...huhhh...geram!!

okeh..nxt story....

skarang sy trase spt sy telah mendpt balasan....it's karma bebeh....sy tolak org...kini org tolak sy...ngee....sy tolak...ade reason..org tolak pon ade reasonnye.....so i understand exactly y....quite disappointing...apekan daye....i'm me..! a load to be accomplished!! n people still don't understand me....

hny mampu berserah pd yg Maha Esa....

"the worst thing that a man can do to a woman is to let her fall in love n leave her when she falls.."

innalillah.....

received a shocked news....from a very dear friend of mine..lost of her beloved farther.....pity her......we....as friends...touched n felt d lost too....

all we can do...sending prayers for her farther...may Allah place him amongst pious men n grant jannah...insyaAllah...we also pray...that she'll gained strength..patience...n faith...facing the obstacles that Allah has sent to her......

while me...still praying for my future.....my family happiness.....n friends....

loads of things need to be re-do...uhhhhh.......

choices...

when we r facing choices that has to be made....erk..susah rasenye....pilihan2 yg diperngaruhi oleh unsur2 sekeliling..ibu bapa...adik bradik..dan org laen...

nak2 plak bile keputusan tuh mak bapak kite yg soh pilih......org kate..better follow jek..sbb kat situ la keberkatannye...n kat situ la rezeki....

tp aku sedey gile...nape org laen lak cube downkan aku...okeh...hani...lap air mate dulu.....

sucks entry!

kucar kacir otak aku dah..

not a good entry this time..i must say....

to make a decision...ones must sacrifice things...

sy hilang 'beliau' krn cite2 sy..yg akhirnye x habes pon...krn tuntutan kerje....perbezaan taraf katenye...hmm...baeklah..sy akur....sy percaye qada' n qadar Allah...ini bermakna jodoh kami kekal sbg sahabat...alhamdulillah..better than be a rival...

but now.....

Allah uji sy lagek dgn situasi yg hampir same...juz when i'm about to make another life's decision...hajat hendak menyambung cite2 lame....tatkale spt ade peluangnye...hmmm....sy dipertemukan pule ngan beliau yg mahukan sy memenuhi cite2nye....ya Allah.....wpon mase depan kami belum tentu.....terase berat nak buat keputusan spt neh...dgn kekangan mase utk ku berikan jwpn kpd keduenye......

okeh..entry ini sgt sucks!

jodoh...lagik.... :P

okeh..not to story bout my jodoh sbenanye......psl org sekeliling sy.....since i'm in adult world...jodoh..relationship..marriage....seems to be topic utame everywhere i go...huh..lumrah alam agaknye...huuuu

sympathy...empathy...sad..pity....ngan yg dah berusie...30+....yg maseh tercari2 jodohnye....what went wrong???kembali kpd Maha Pencipta la seharusnya...tp ade yg mmg x cari n x kesah pon..(like me..myself)....things n matters yg can not be forced by anyone....is it necessary to?hmmm....mmg la kene berusehe...tp bagaimane...well...google it....ade jek kat mane2 blog laen...jgn cepat putus asa..n hampa...sampai nak bawak diri bagai...mane nak pegi nye pon..dunia nehkecik jek...wake up...n confront every obstacles....

xde la pandai sgt pon...sy sendiri maseh single n available (promote diri jap)......so be it....tho ade rase sedey...it'll go away eventually.....sedey bkan ape...sbb xde geng nak beronggeng n berfoya2...huhuh.....kwn2 ramai nak kawen taun neh....one by one...i'm loosing my friend....insyaAllah tdklah ilang selamenye...


okeh..i bluffed....i did story things about me..hahaha...sengal....!

kekesalan yg menyesal

okeh....sbenanye nak buat pembetulan keadaan sket...rase regret pon ade..sbb buat post sblm neh...hmmm...i was too carried away.....emosi x stabil ngan keadaan sekelling sy skang....

lack of sleep...lack of rest...lack of motivation......

lack of iman....

nauzubillah......nak marah jek hati neh lately...jealous x bertempat lak tuh....pointless kan???hmmm....i think i should seek professional advise le...huk....psychological la...bukan krn gile...

tp kan...sebenanye...Islam dah bg cara....in any situation...kembali pd Nya...insyaAllah berjaye (dgn nada adam) ...amek wudhu' etc....istighfar......solat sunat 2 rakaat......u did once...so u can do it over n over again hani...yes I can!!!!

o ye.....silly me...i miss d "attention"....gelis...hahah....aku insan biase....

define friends....pelis...

saat2 jiwe kacau neh kan...mende2 kecik pon leh jadek besar rasenye..hati sy rapuh...sy mudah jeles...JELES??? bkn kat bf okeh...i dun have any bf pon....

tp jeles kat bff....wutdaaa....hmm...beliau pernah trase hati bile sy baek dgn ex beliau..sbb kami mmg kwn dah lame..then bile r/ship diorg dah ok..of coz la die x kesah kan bile aku baek ngan bf die..but now they broke up again..n this time for real punyo...dun think they ever get back again...for sum reason yg hampeh....n i dun entertain her ex anymore...xmo shbt trase hati buat kali kedue..

yg buat sy jiwe kacau x smene2...bagaimane beliau boley sgtla rapat ngan ex sy...why????????sy tau mereke bershbt...tetapi....n nape sy ade rase mereke akan ke jinjang pelamin..this is not impossible to happen la kan...jodoh d tgn Tuhan.,....i dun feel a thing towards that man anymore...i'm so over him...cume situasi ini...sy x brape boley trime....

hmmm...abaikan jek la...sy xnk pk lagek lps bgn esok pg...

psl jodoh....nape sy asyik bertgemu ngan org yg 2 taun lebey tua dr sy...?uh....ahah....tuh pon leh jiwe kacau...ntah pape ntah...byk lagek jiwe kacau neh...tp xleh nak mention...how i longing to have sumone that i can share with....haha...jiwe kacau lagek.....tp xmo kawen....nak share2 story jek...ade tak...ade tak???

off!

jem n roti

huargh,.....bersiaran pule dr kampung halaman ibunda.....sbb aku xde kampung kan..tumpang ayahanda n bonda jek la...lame x blk perak...windu....windu lagek bile kenangkan zaman mase kecik2..mase arwah opah ade....besttttttttt

mase nak blk kg..gile jem x hengat...ngan ragam manusie yg panas2 hati lagek..xde nye nak bersopan santun kat jln raye dah..dlm hati maseng2 nak lanyak jek semua keter yg ade depan diorg......dasat2!! scary! takot pisang berbuah 3 kali.....trauma lame x ilang lagek...bile nak break dgn keter depan..sgt menakutkan...dgn muatan keter yg sgt berat lak tuh...momentum lebey la kan...

so nak jdkan story mory...betolak kol 12.30 tghari dr rumah...heading to ipoh..nak ziarah longjaja kat umah ayahanda beliau...sbb maseh berpantang..rindu baby khaira..sampai ipoh...hampir kol 5ptg....mane x gile aku jadinye...plak tuh..bawak keter bayan (mujur ade keter die...sbb keter abah belom 100% elok)....manual okeh....i dun mind bawak keter manual...masalahnye bile jem...mcm nak tercabut setiap urat kat kaki aku tuh.....sakeeettt...tp  x sampai hati nak pass baton kat abah....tgk letey jek kat wajah tua die...hmm....xpelah abah...anakmu mengerti...dgn lapar yg amat sgt..sbb bawak bekal roti jek pon...bajet 3 jam sampai ipoh....

sudahnye...lps solat asar and makan kat umah alang tuh..kami pon bertolak le ke seri iskandar...syukur..jln x jem..kalau jem gak...mmg aku bayar tow truck utk towing kitorg...gegegegege....bile stress kan..mcm2 kepale neh berpk...

last week...sy jumpe seorg insan yg sgt berhati mulia...x sangke masih ade manusie mcm neh kat muke bumi Allah....syukur....Alhamdulillah..Allah ketemukan kami dgn insan kamil ini....dlm kekalutan kami...dlm kesempitan kami....dlm kesesakan kami...n dlm kesedihan kami...insan ini sgt memahami...membuka ruang utk kami bernafas n mempertimbangkan semula gerak langkah kami.....menitis air mate aku bile mendgr kate2nye di corong telefon apabile memberi kami kelonggaran dlm membuat keputusan...kesempatan utk kami bangun semula....syukur ya Allah...Kau kirimkan kami insan ini semasa insan laen yg bertunjangkan nafsu n keinginan syaitan menyelebungi diri mereke....menganiaya idop kami dan mase depan kami...sesungguhnye Allah maha mengetahui...maha adil....smoge Allah mengadili kami dgn maha KebijaksanaanMu ya Allah....

smoge Allah merahmati insan mulia ini......bukakanlah pintu rezeki seluasnye buat beliau ya Allah...jauhkanlah kejahatan dr nye ya Allah...kurniakanlah kesihatan yg baek ke atasnye ya Allah....amin....

hot hot hot

last week..everywhere kat ceruk mane pon dlm opis neh kecoh psl penilaian prestasi done recently (but d management had postponed d date..for i-forgot-how-many-times)...lucky i wasn't involve...juz dgr2 n lihat2 ape yg berlaku...observe...n evaluate ape yg jd kat sekeliling.....

manusie...benarkah akan berlaku adil sesame manusie tanpe ade prasaan hasad, benci, iri hati, dendam n kesumat mengiringi setiap keputusan yg di ambil??krn ade kuase..sekaligus boley boley mempengaruhi bawahannye utk menilai insan bawahannye pule....do they really made d observation by all rounder...or by their naked eyes??

insan2 yg dinilai....betulke slh ape yg telah pihak penilai menilai..?hv u given d best?n u nvr done anything wrong??or they get emotional bile evaluation result kluar....sbb maybe they gave d best they can...xpenah ngular...xpenah "tai chi"...x penah itu..x penah ini....heheh...


ape yg sy lihat..ade yg trase ati etc....is it d system ke hape eh??poning betol...leh menganggugugat ketenteraman hubungan manusie ngan manusie yg laen.....

ape yg sy rase...penilai n pemarkahan yg di buat neh ade beberape kemungkinan pd akibatnye...

1. markah tinggi (scenario 1)- yes u did very well with excellent!u'd given ur best..n it shows....n yes u deserve it!

2. markah tinggi (scenario 2) - u did well..but not at ur best..u completed ur task, but not as good as ur boss want..sumtimes u don't even hv any task to do...but becoz u have d most minimum errors occurred..so d high mark given by ur boss is to motivates u to do better...

3. markah tinggi (scenario 3) - anda pandai bermaen wayang!!!ewah2.... hebat dlm tai chi..haiyak!! even tho u r half looser...still u r a smart person!!

4. markah trendah (scenario 1) - u r a total garbage!! ok....not that far... some people maybe don't hv any motivational momentum utk nak inject diri diorg...so tak sgt memberangsangkan hasil kerje...delayed...undone...asyik nak tai chi kerje(x reti nak maen wayang)...

5. markah rendah (scenario 2) - u did ur best..u manage to tackle n handle any problem n u took risk for that...akan tetapi..jeng jeng jeng.........u r just a victim of discrimination!! sorry to say but ur boss hated u!!huhu....ksian ar kalau part neh...pity...but wut can i say more...berdoa la smoge Allah beri ptunjuk kat pemangse camneh....

smoge sy diadili ngan keadilan yg sepatutnye sy terime....amin...

newsfeed...verbally

wow..kinda shocked as i entered opis ari senin lps....mcm2 new spread out kat cni...latest...psl migration insan2 cni ke region laen...woowww...seems like everyone is leaving...sbenanye sket jek...but since bunyik die cam ramai kan...trase sungguh kehilangan...

bile diorg nak anto aku migrate lak?hahah...suke suki jek manusie yg ade kuase neh kan...sng2 jek nak anta org sane cni...welcome to d real world hani! u juz seen not even half of it yet.....huh......jauhkan sy dr kesusahan ya Allah

oh manusie...as usual...jiwe merundum lagek...oh...donia....begitu byk dogaanmu...do u hv to be this cruel to me??yyyy????jgn sampai sy kuciwe yg amat sgt....nnt jd laen plak...nauzubiilah...

last sunday ..telah memasang unifi d rumah....laju...compared to before...d speed could reach to 4.9 Mb for downloading...huh...nyaman tatkale buat on9 streaming....camne la kalau pakai 20Mb kan..sure superb!! sabo je la ..nak baut camne..naseb le jadi anak tiri TM...slame setaun stgh hempas pulas utk psg infra bagai...gado ngan contractor...vendor....merase jgak ape yg diusehekan slame neh..wahaha...uh...gelak kejam!!xde la gado  camne pon...seganas2 aku...i don't like arguments...discussion is better...hahah..buat blood pressure naek jek la....

well....about office pulok...ade sesi berbalas email yg sgt sy x senangi...childish!!absurd matters yg berbangket...sedeynye...yg buat tuh..n then cc tuh d big boss was a person who is highly respected by colleagues...juz bcoz that person is a super senior here...is that mean d person is totally right in every decision n action..duh....i guess it's sumkind of pre-menopausal syndrome...opps....nauzubillah....

ish...layankan jek la......uh....i still have stiff shoulder on my right...so in pain....found out that it liaise wit stress...whatdaaaa..hahah..need sumthing to motivates myself!!

pembukaan tahun baru

nebes jap ape yg jd..trauma jap pon ade..dah lame x kene...last skali eksiden mase beberape taun sudah..dek krn penunggang motosikal yg separe bongok...sape soh pakai helmet mase ats jln raye??? menonong jek bawak..alih2 cium keter abah aku...kene seret dek tersangkut kat bumper blakang...bahagian tepi..dat was very traumatized gak..nyawe org kan...

so nak jd cite...last weekend..went to malacca...sbb bawak abah ade ceramah umrah utk jemaah d melaka.....on d way back...dah sampai mrr2 ...lepas sket dr zoo...hmm....keter depan..white swift...dr awal lagek da pasan...suke betol die men break...alih2 buat emergency break...aku pon..sehabes boleh le breaknye..alhamdulillah..dpt elak....x kene keter die....then aku tgk cermin blkg...nampak jelas keter yg datang...dlm hati doa...jgn la kene...tp instinct kate laen...

Allah maha mengetahui...keter dr blakang...white myvi dtg hentam....luckily...d momentum wasn't hard....so d impact pon minor....tp sian mamat tuh...obviously shown on his face betape terkejutnye die...n he started shaking...cam parkinson pon ade...i was in his shoes before....tau le camne rase nye...so we better tak keruhkan lagek keadaan...

see....minor jek kan.....seb baek claim org blakang punye insurance..

so..moral of d story....kalau jumpe keter depan yg sewel suke men break...shift lane....biar lambat asal selamat@!! n jgn lupe byk doa ...smoge Allah lindungi kite dr musibah...

week yg weak

heard about a colleague and also a friend who got an offer for a job at other company...sad but happy for him...pray for his best and grateful for his luck...and also a few others who received interview calls...hopefully soon is for me to shine....

prasan jek..mencari pon malaz....bukannye malaz ape...condition aku neh laen sket...grad laen..kojenye laen...try and error jek la....who knows....tuah ayam nampak di kaki...tuah manusie pd hang tuah...wawawawaaa..lame excuses.... :P

huwahhh....kwn2 nak engage n getting married this sgt ramai..i need to start saving for them skang...for transportation and present la kan...leh x kalau aku hadiahkan doa jek..janji ikhlas kan..ngeee.... :D

yday bawak abah utk his medical checkup...gov hospital..sungguh sedey...kakitangan die mmg nak kene tgn2kan..maybe diorg dah immune sgt kot...lagek pon prangai manusie yg dtg tuh pon ade gak yg mcm nak kene tgnkan...

another 6 weeks akan dpt result...mudah2an abah will be fine...insyaAllah....

GreNaDe!!

"Easy come, easy go
That's just how you live, oh
Take, take, take it all,
But you never give
Should of known you was trouble from the first kiss,
Why were they open?
Gave you all I had

And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked,
Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby;
But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no
Black, black, black and blue beat me till I'm numb
Tell the devil I said “hey” when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman,
That's just what you are, yeah,
You’ll smile in my face then rip the breaks out my car
Gave you all I had

And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby;
But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire, ooh
You’ d watch me burn down in flames
You said you loved me you're a liar
Cause you never, ever, ever did baby...
But darling I’ll still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby;
But you won't do the same.
No, you won’t do the same,
You wouldn’t do the same,
Ooh, you’ll never do the same,
No, no, no, no "

oh yes..yes..yes...ntah nape aku ngah kemaruk lagu neh..melody die n lyric (definitely) die sgt best...sampai buat ringtone! huwahhh....and a colleague caught me tgh nyanyi sambil buat gaye penuh emosi..uhh....malu!!! well...die br nampak d other side of me...ngeee

adam's new world..heeee

all rite peeps..cewah...kpd peminat2 adam...i'm presenting u...........


new adammmmmmmm!!!

muhammad adam aiman - gamba ini telah dicuri drpd page bain aku :)

berbekalkan bag ben10 yg baru..botol air ben10..bekal makanan ben10...beberape bekalan tisu yg mencukupi serta hand sanitizer (sbb adam allergy ngan habuk etc)...adam mule melangkah kaki sbg budak genius aulad...


smoge membesar dgn menjadi anak n lelaki yg soleh yea adam...bijak serte beriman......dah besar kan....wah....sbb kan sorg neh permate hati sume org...so..he's d center of attraction i must say...hehe


he is turning 5 this year..n tahun ni..birthday die jatoh pd hari raye..triple celebration la jadinye die nanti... ~> birthday adam, merdeka day, eidul fitr!!


1st day at school jek dah macam2 cite ngan c adam neh..classmate die panggil die c putih sbb belum tau name...pastuh mase nak balik..punye la cuak mak aku, mama n abah adam sbb tak sampai2 ke rumah....ghopenye die ckp ngan brader van tuh..die nak turun last...sonok sgt agaknye die naek van tuh ngan rakan2 seperjuangan..padehal dah lalu dah rumah aku mase tuh...adam..adam...


well..sebenanye ade vid prangai die kat school...tp gagal plak aku dapatkan dr abg aku..ngee....


till then!!!

what hurts d most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let ?em out

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though
Goin' on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And havin' so much to say
(Much to say)
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do, oh
Oh yeah

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
(To say)
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

Not seein' that lovin' you
That's what I was trying to do, ooo

thats wut i'm trying to do....

syukur ..

Alhamdulillah....syukur...ape yg sy azamkan utk 1432H..Allah dah bukekan jln sket demi sket..smoge Allah x putuskan nikmatNya pd sy..smoge iman sy meningkat n maken teguh dr hari ke hari...

ada org tego pakaian sy..cam org tua etc...ye la..labuh dsbnye kan...sbbnye...sy cuba penuhi tuntutan syara'....biar ape org nak kate...pandangan Allah yg sy takotkan....sekarang neh cukup ssh nak cr pakaian muslimah yg betol2 penuhi tuntuan syara' neh...konon jek fesyen/pkaian muslimah...lengannye panjang..labuhnye plak x brape labuh...bile dah labuhnye elok jek...tgn nye plak x brape pjg...

sy neh bukanlah alim sgt spt org laen...sbb sy x sempurne lagek la..makanye sket demi sket sy cube mencari kesempurnaan itu...slh ke???sy x pernah halang ape yg org laen nak pakai...cume kdg2 tuh jauh d sudut hati sy nak tego jugak la kan .... terutamenye yg dah kehilangan org tua..bila aurat si anak x sempurna...c ibu bapa yg dah bersemadi kat liang lahad akan mendapat habuannya apb 3 langkah anak itu melangkah dr rumahnya...dan terlihatnye aurat anak itu oleh bukan makramnye.....

tp kalau tego kate ustazah la...macam bagus laa....donia....donia....masuk saham gak aku sbb x tego kan...

baru2 neh...sy berjaye menemui tdung lycra bersaiz L (belum mampu nak pakai yg XL lagek..takot org kate ustazah punye psl :P)....tp mahal la kan compare ngan M...penah gak sy beli reu on9...konon nk yg exclusive..xnk same ngan org...saiz m jgak.....tp..tetap x penuhi tuntutan spt pd surah an-nisa..semoge lebey byk sy temui tudung yg dicari serta pakaian yg diingini....biar hati parents sy pon gumbire melihat anak mereke...

oooohhh..tp sy byk tudung saiz M tuh..syg kalau x pakai...oh...maseh belum kuat iman sy nampaknye....bile org tego tudung baru sy neh...ramai sedar kelainan nye..ye la...obvious kot,...sbb beza dgn yg lame..well..they nvr saw me b4...kan..kan..kan...biarkan..ojian!~!!

untuk kehidupan sosial..sy sdg bataskan juga...sket demi sket...cuba utk menyelit ruang2 yg lebey bersifat ilmiah...oh...buku ilmiah yg sy beli pon lom habes bace...lambat benar nmpknye compared ngan buku hiburan kan...mmg le kate ilmuan...seusatu yg baek tu mmg ssh utk dilakukan..ttp mudah sgt utk ditinggalkan....

laen cerite...adam has started his school life..heheh....cumel..x sangke..dah besar dah die..camtuh la gamaknye parents kite tgk kite dr kecik kan..x sangke dah maken besar..n maken tua..i'll be posted new pic of adam soon for those auntys yg merindui adam..hehe.....