Assalamualaikum wbt...
dah semaken jarang aku menarikan jari jemari kat sini...lebih suke membatu agaknye...bukak ni pon sbb nak tgk blog isteri pertama UZAR..bile keluar psl UZAR...teringat blog isterinye yg dulu mmg aku nantikan..sgt ilmiah dan inspirational...

syawal 1434H;

Syawal pertame tanpe kehadiran bonda...persiapan kami pon sederhana je...takde yg baru..serba serbi yg lame...mmg kitorg bukan jenis tukar semue bende bile aidilfitri menjelang... tp kekalkan yg lame sbb nak biarkan sgale yg ade kaitan dgn mak... kami berkumpul di pagi raye...kat kubur mak...abah trase terkilan sket..sbb tak sempat nak siapkan lagek kayu kubur utk mak...hajat hati abah..nak buat sendiri...nak ukir sendiri ....nak letak sendiri....tp abah tgh recovery progress slps surgery...belom boley nak buat keje berat2....tp sbb sygkan cucu...di dokong jgak cucu die tuh...

Alhamdulillah...kami sekeluarge berkumpul bersame di pagi raye...dapat bergambar bersame...termasuk la abg yg sorg tuh...Alhamdulillah...termakbul doa mak...wpon slps mak pergi... selepas berkumpul kat rumah..masing2 bawa haluan masing2...beraye di rumah mertua...aku n abah..blk kampung mak..di perak...spt biase...spt tahun2 sebelumnya...

ramai yg bercerita psl mak...semua mcm tak percaye pemergian mak....masing2 terkesan ngan ketiadaan mak..sungguh..mak rapat ngan semua org..org yg kenal mak...tau la mak mcm mane..semoge byk la doa2 drpd org yg menyayangi mak

brokenhearted;

haahaaa...raye kali nih mmg agak pilu lps dpt brite mengenai pojaan hati yg sekian lame bertahta dlm hati nih...rupanye bakal mendirikan rumahtangga...cracked habes hati nih...punah..ranap...sgale bagai prasan...haha...sudah tersurat takdir kami begini...mmg jelas ..terang dan nyate kami takde jodoh...saje nak sedapkan hati je..tunggu die...kot2 ade harapan...hahaha...padehal dah byk Allah bg tande2 tuh..takpelah...br boleh buat man hunting bebetol...ini serius!! (ala2 wonderpets)...

ade jgak beberape perkare yg agak annoying berlaku lately...huh..yg tuh aku share post laen la...pjg sgt... cukop2 la ngulor...

ma'assalamah...

please keep me in ur du'a..

Ahlan wa sahlan ya Ramadhan...

Assalamualaikum...

bertemu lagek dgn ramadhan taun neh..(insyaAllah)..Alhamdulillah...

hari nih...Alhamdulillah...sekalian alam (exec level) dalam kampeni neh memanjatkan setinggi kesyukuran ke hadrat Ilahi atas rezeki yg dikurniekan..definitely...including me....wpon mencapai hanye minima berbanding dgn senior2/.syukurrrrr...better than nothing....


sungguh...keberkatan rezeki tu lebey penting...insyaAllah...


mlm tadek...was held a celebration for june and july babies among click opismate lame ....the participation was not as many as we did before...tp..the thought that count...it's ok..buat jek la yg mane ade...we cannot force people utk dtg...wut to do....sy gumbire ngan rakan2 sy.. :)


kesedihan & kesemakan di kepale juge maken bersarang..tapi tak dpt nak luahkan kat sini...too personal...wpon niat tuh ade...ya Allah...kuatkanlah hati2 kami ya Allah..smoge kebenaranMu mengatasi kejahilan manusia yg ignorance...

king kong

Assalamualaikum...we meet again huh....

tetibe..rase nak menaip...wlaupon sgt byk keje...xpe la kan...skali 2 kaler...

alkisahnye...hmm...byk berlaku kesah yg berkisar pd hari sabtu tempoh hari...wonder where and what i should begin with..okeh...family day on last saturday....13K of staffs and families were there....hamboi...sangat la meriahnye...lucky..i went there with the bachelor click..heheh...so..we did enjoyed ourselves!! semue diredahi....sporting...wpon sedikit keciwe...sebijik ipad pon x sangkut..apekan daye..bukan rezeki namenye...

pulang jek rumah...dgn keadaan yg amat penat..received a shocking news from mak...disappointed and frustrated.....hanye mampu berdoa pd yg maha Esa...spy hal itu tdk menjadi kenyataan....yg dibimbangnye..keadaan mak...hmm

another news...tak tau nak kate brite terkejut ke ape...tp..mcm dah jangke...mendpt perkabaran bhw "beliau" sudah bertunang...Alhamdulillah....Allah sudah temukan jodoh yg terbaek buat beliau...InsyaAllah...smoge settledown la beliau hendaknye...kudoakan agar jodoh kalian dipermudahkan...dan kekal bahgie hingge ke akhir hayat hendaknye....wanita itu...juge dikenali...terlihat akan kelembutan dan kesantunannye.....Alhamdulillah......tahniah buat kalian berdua..

smoge Allah pertemukan buatku juge....amin

mane nak cari cincin camneh? org tak bg...sy beli sendiri jek pon boleyyyy

kesah seterusnye....menerime kiriman "whatsapp" yg tdk diduge tatkale menunggu kekande utk pulang ke kampung halaman...pelik tp benar...hahah..."beliau" yg laen pule menhantar pesanan ringkas melalui "whatsapp"...ucapan hari lahir (yg dah berabad lepasnye)....thanks...wpon lambat....huhu...ntah le...bercampor baur prasaan ini tatkale menerime text drpd "beliau"...sungguh..Allah menguji kekentalan diri ini....it was just a short conversation tho...still..berbekas di hati dan jari jemari ini..

mlm sabtu...diteruskan lagek dgn pengembaraan ke kampong halaman....tepat jam 1 pg...kami sekeluarge tibe di perkarangan rumah along....sambil dinantikan oleh suamiye...utk membuke pagar....pastuh...dah turunkans semue barang...boley plak lepak kat wakaf baru umah along....disogokkan pule dgn doyan yg baru loroh...perhhh..nikmatnye...wpon jam randik menunjukkan jam 1.30 pagi...kitorg anak branak buat kenduri doyan...bagai tak penah berjumpe dgn spesis buah itu slame kami hidup...Alhamdulillah..ats nikmat Allah...lazat tak terperi....

keesokannye...masok kebon...bestnye..doyan hunting...besttttt....skang..peloh pun bau doyan....standed la tuh kan...harus la.....

oh ye....maseh berbekas pekare2 yg berlaku ini...sungguh taman di dalam hati sgt berkembang mekar...tp smken layu pule adekalenye...(gile hampeh...tak reti nak pakai ayat berbuge2)...

smoge Allah kentalkan jiwe sy lagek...n tingkatkan kesabaran sy...redha dgn ujian...

You're the best thing I never had

june to end...

assalamualaikum...

last post was on 30th april...sebln lebey tak menjengah laman sesawang neh rupenye...mmg bersawang la kan...well...bukan fofular pon sampai org nak tau details in my life..

still tak dapat nak lupekan conversation yg sgt menusuk ngan anak sedare arituh...while driving blk dr sum place yg aku  brape hengat...sambel menyanyi2 lagu dira n hafiz (ost ombak rindu - patot ajak budak tuh berzikir...adoi..ape punye makcik daaa)...tibe2..bdak kecik neh tny soklan...

bdk kecik : chu..chu belom kawen lagek kan??
chu : aah...chu belom kawen..
bdk kecik : nape chu belom kawen?
chu : sbb chu belom kawen lagek la....
bdk kecik : sbb takde org nak kat chu ke?
< silence...gulp...rase nak geget budak neh >
chu : ....a'ah...takde org nak kat chu.......

wahahaha....sesungguhnye bdk kecik ini spt meminte utk dicubit2 mulutnye...dgn riak wajah yg selambe...huh..sabo jek la aku...

andai kau tahu wahai anak saudara kesygku..makcikmu ini kepeningan dengan pelbagai yg melande hidupnye....bukanlah sampai tak laku...tp lebih mengutamekan perkare2 yg laen dahulu....
perlu juge kamu tahu...sesungguhnye Allah yg mengaturkan hidup kite....owh....maseh hijau anak sedareku itu....smoge kamu terpelihare drpd prasaan yg ku alami ini......

bile kebuntuan

assalam..

entry neh..agak jiwekacau...as usual..kepale pening camne nak terus terang ngan org tua...people said that d youngest of d fmly sng nak dpt ape aje..nak luah ape aje..etc

i guess...i'm excluded...sejak kecik...bkn sume bende aku share ngan parents...xnk diorg risau n semakkan kepale ..of coz la segale kenakalan aku pon aku sorokkan..kene bantai ngan cikgu pon xpenah cite..for sure kene blk ngan parents..sape soh p buat onar kat skolah..(tp bdk2 skang da laen..cikgu takot diorg)...n x semua benda aku leh dpt dgn mudah...

berbalek motip sbena entry kali neh..mcm mane nak terus terang dgn parents..on current situation...previous situation pon payah nak cite...dah terdesak br tekeluar...haha

hari demi hari...mcm2 petande baru Allah tunjukkan...wpon saket setiap kalinye...maybe itulah yg terbaek...

stiap kali tatap wajah parents...ya Allah...berikan ku rezeki dan kekuatan utk menjage dan membalas jase keduenye...wajah2 tua itu tlh byk mengerah tenage utk membesar & mendidik aku...tdk semua keluarge itu sempurne...tp kami cuba menyempurnakannye...

acapkali dgr lagu maher zain.."number one for me"...sgt meruntun jiwe ini...terlalu byk dosa telah kutaburkan buat mereka... -_-

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it's april...

huwaaa...april sudaa...my last post was on february...hmm..it's been a while oledi since my last post...tuh pon td sbb tgk "gen21" kat al-hijrah....psl bloggers..then suddenly teringat blog sendiri yg lame x singgah...well..dey olls sume siap add nuffnang bagai to expand followers..mine..nvr bother pon brape ramai..huhu....just a medium for me to express what i hv inside kepale serabot neh tru writing...typing to be precise... ;)

slame mane aku telah "tinggalkan" laman neh...lebey lame lagek kekacauan yg bersarang d minda sbenanye...

last week...i'm officially bujang kembali..huhuuuuu...takdir Allah telah atur aku...mmg ade hikmahnye..n i can see it clearly one by one...ramai org yg soh kawen awal bagai..well peeps...different people will walk in trough different journey of life...don't aspect my life or other people's life will walk d same path as yours..if Allah destined your life to get married in earlier age as such...just be grateful for that...takyah bising tanye nape bagai...ko nak sponsor ke?huh..itu adlh soklan berserte amarah...padehal ade yg betol2 concern....maaf..darah mude katekan...peace!!

it's maybe d best decision for both of us...as both have "things" to settle dulu..huuuu...it torn my hearts bit by bit tho...can't deny that...prasaan yg hadir itu ikhlas....dan bukan mudah utk dtg sendiri...hukhuk....to recover from my last rship pon agak saket...kene agresif pnye teknik aku hamek...this time..belom tau lagek teknik ape yg sesuai..since the way it was end pon different...huh...even harder this time...

apr 15th..date dat i always remember..d date it was all started..hmm...hopefully managed to overcome situasi yg x best neh....dun like it at all...leh x kalau juz throw this feeling simply away...huhuuuu...pray everyday for that...insyaAllah....

hmmm...d sampeng itu...kepelbagaian perkare laen berkaitan kerjaye n peribadi sgt melemaskan....sampai tahap..."benci keje ngan pompuan"...duh...hani..sile cermin sket jantina anda tuh ape??huhuuuuu...mencik....harus blaja utk trime semue neh....ohhhh...

hani..stop whining....

i'm done...

DOA UNTUK KEKASIH

Ya Allah.... Seandainya telah engkau catatkan... Dia milikku tercipta buatku... Satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku... Titipkanlah kebahagian antara kami.... agar kemesraan itu abadi... Dan ya Allah... ya tuhanku yang maha mengasihi... Seiringkanlah kami melayari hidup ini... Ketepian yang sejahtera dan abadi...

Tetapi ya Allah... Seandainya telah engkau takdirkan.... dia bukan miliku... Bawalah ia jauh dari pandanganku.... Luputkanlah ia dari ingatanku... Dan peliharalah aku dari kekecewaan....

Serta ya Allah ya tuhanku yang maha mengerti.... Berikanlah aku kekuatan... Melontar bayangannya jauh ke dada langit... Hilang bersama senja nan merah.. agarku bisa bahagia... Walaupun tanpa bersama dengannya...

Dan ya Allah yang tercinta... Gantillah yang telah hilang.... Tumbuhkanlah kembali yang telah patah... Walaupun tidak sama dengan dirinya...

Ya Allah ya tuhanku... Pasrahkanlah aku dengan takdirmu... Sesungguhnya apa yang telah engkau takdirkan... Adalah yang terbaik buat ku.... kerana engkau maha mengetahui... Segala yang terbaik buat hamba Mu ini...

Ya Allah... Cukuplah engkau sahaja yang menjadi pemeliharaku... Di dunia dan di akhirat... Dengarlah rintihan dari hamba Mu yang daif ini... Jangan engkau biarkan aku sendirian... Di dunia ini mahupun di akhirat... Menjuruskan aku kearah kemaksiatan dan kemungkaran... Maka kurniakanlah aku seorang pasangan yang beriman... Supaya aku dan dia sama2 dapat membina Kesejahteraan hidup... Ke jalan yang Engkau redhai... dan kurniakanlah padaku keturunan yang soleh....

Amin.. Ya Rabbal A'lamin. .

Hati ini diuji lagek..

Subhanallah.....Allah uji aku lagek dgn ujian yg hampir same....

saat aku terbang tinggi d langet biru....aku terhempas ke tanah balek...ade hikmah di sebaleknye...insya Allah.. Allah nak ingatkan aku....byk perkare...

ade certain things i dare to say...certain things i don't even hv guts to tell...it's hard for me to let things out of my chest....and if that has become the biggest crime...i accept....

torrent of tears everyday...each time aftr solah....Alhamdulillah...lesser as time flies.....

ya Allah..aku kembalikan ujianMu ini kpd Mu......

i've survived this twice......i'm sure dat i'll b managed to get tru this for another time...hopefully it'll b d last....

if this is what i get for my honest mistakes....redha ngan ketentuanMu ya Allah...

credit to my friend...amalina...pinjam sat..kepale xde idea...

.. maybe, one day you would understand.
but i just don't know when.

and maybe, one day you would see.
that nobody loves you like me.

CNY

gong xi fa cai...

huhu..dpt la merase cuti 4 hari sepene CNY...tp cam biase...cuti ke x...penoh jek jadual aku dr pg smpi mlm..sume krn menjage hati insan2 sekeliling,,permudahkanlah urusanku yaAllah....

hmm...not a happy moment for me indeed...things happened beyond expectation...nvr thought..a "simple" sentence could caused self heartache...hukhukhuk...menyesal..apekan daye..terlajak perahu boley diundur..tlajak kate...padan la muke...doa saje yg mampu kulakukan...bersame linangan airmate... *bajet ayat dm novel...


xtau nak post ape lagek...billions idea running in my head to write...tp apekan daye...perlu la ade penapisan pnceritaan..since i'm doing this openly...few things better be sealed...huhu....

nite...

mendidik jiwe

assalam..

tbe2 rase emo sket arinih..xtau nape..pre to PMS maybe...

sy kene berlatih nmendidik diri supaye

1. bersabar  - jumpe org yg laen2 prangainye..pe'el pon laen2..sabar ngan karenah org..sabar ngan ujian ats ape yg org buat kat kite...

2. menerime kelemahan/kekuatan org laen - satu sikap yg ssh manusie nak didik diri sendiri..sbb pecaye diri tuh hebat kan..so anggap org laen hampes..n xleh terime dek akal...kelemahan org itu..maybe merupekan kekuatan die yg Allah kurniekan..kite xtau..at least-she or he is unique in her/his own  way

3. menerime yg org laen pon ade org laen - meaning...bkn takat ade org ketige.. kempat.. kelime.. keenam... keseratus...hmmm..contoh terbaek adlh ahli keluarge beliau..ade tanggungjawab yg beliau kene laksanekan..kite org baru..kene blaja terime keadaan tuh...jgn letakkan beban lebey pd beliau..*wpon diri ini perlukan perhatian lebey ~ gedis!!!!

4. bak kate shbt..ape yg jd kat kite skang neh adlh choices we've made..ape yg jd kat org laen plak adlh choice diorg..hmm..so maseng2 kehidupan mestilah x same..contoh..aku yg dah tue neh (tue sgt ke???) x kawen lagek sbb aku pilih nak idop berpoye2 lebey lame...whereas girls dat r younger than me yg dahkawen..sbb they've made their choice to end kehidupan berpoye2 diorg earlier dr aku..so..ape nak kesah org laen kawen awal..*yes..noted dat!!!

5.memilih kate2 - ini penting utk tdk mengguris hati mane2 pihak..wpon kdg kale tereksiden gak kate2 yg x sepatutnye kluar dr mulot neh...as u grow older..u should learn to be wiser too..

6.menjage hati sume org/hati sendiri - mmg la bak kate pepatah..bercinte biar satu..berkawan biar seribu...hmm..mmg elok pon kwn ade ramai..tp..yg sshnye nak jage hati sume org yg kite syg neh...kang org neh kate..kite ngan org laen ade jek mase..hmm...sesungguhnye...mase sy sungguh terhad..tanggungjawab sy dgn keluarge lebey besar...nak keluar ngan abe syg sebln skali pon payah..hmmm...anda xtau ape yg terbuku dlm hati sy..nak sy luahkan prasaan n masalah sy pon sy xsanggup n x brani..nnt kate..time ssh br nak cari...huuu...korg pon time ssh jek cari aku kan..sng...?korg sng ngan org laen...huhuuuuu..*noda2 itam d dlm hati -_-

7. spy menjadi diri sdiri, bk diri org laen - kalau ditengokkan persekitaran..ngan perkembangan fesyen n tekno neh..ape org laen ade..sume kite nak kan..?berjaye la setan menghasud manusie camtuh..,,ukur baju d bdn sendiri wahai hani...tingkatkan amalan mu itu..tdk sume perkare itu mdpt approval syariat...fesyen pon...kate utk muslimah....tapiiiiiiii....hmm...xsempurne lagek..menghalalkan sesuatu perkare yg menggunekan name yg halal...hmm?

ya Allah...smoge Kau pelihare IMAN ku..akhlak ku..lidah ku..akal ku..diri ku...dan MARUAH ku...

*byk lagek yg perlu kene didik dlm diri ini...ngaji dah jarang..adusss....perlu tingkatkan kerajinan!!!

choices...

when we r facing choices that has to be made....erk..susah rasenye....pilihan2 yg diperngaruhi oleh unsur2 sekeliling..ibu bapa...adik bradik..dan org laen...

nak2 plak bile keputusan tuh mak bapak kite yg soh pilih......org kate..better follow jek..sbb kat situ la keberkatannye...n kat situ la rezeki....

tp aku sedey gile...nape org laen lak cube downkan aku...okeh...hani...lap air mate dulu.....

sucks entry!

kucar kacir otak aku dah..

not a good entry this time..i must say....

to make a decision...ones must sacrifice things...

sy hilang 'beliau' krn cite2 sy..yg akhirnye x habes pon...krn tuntutan kerje....perbezaan taraf katenye...hmm...baeklah..sy akur....sy percaye qada' n qadar Allah...ini bermakna jodoh kami kekal sbg sahabat...alhamdulillah..better than be a rival...

but now.....

Allah uji sy lagek dgn situasi yg hampir same...juz when i'm about to make another life's decision...hajat hendak menyambung cite2 lame....tatkale spt ade peluangnye...hmmm....sy dipertemukan pule ngan beliau yg mahukan sy memenuhi cite2nye....ya Allah.....wpon mase depan kami belum tentu.....terase berat nak buat keputusan spt neh...dgn kekangan mase utk ku berikan jwpn kpd keduenye......

okeh..entry ini sgt sucks!

jodoh...lagik.... :P

okeh..not to story bout my jodoh sbenanye......psl org sekeliling sy.....since i'm in adult world...jodoh..relationship..marriage....seems to be topic utame everywhere i go...huh..lumrah alam agaknye...huuuu

sympathy...empathy...sad..pity....ngan yg dah berusie...30+....yg maseh tercari2 jodohnye....what went wrong???kembali kpd Maha Pencipta la seharusnya...tp ade yg mmg x cari n x kesah pon..(like me..myself)....things n matters yg can not be forced by anyone....is it necessary to?hmmm....mmg la kene berusehe...tp bagaimane...well...google it....ade jek kat mane2 blog laen...jgn cepat putus asa..n hampa...sampai nak bawak diri bagai...mane nak pegi nye pon..dunia nehkecik jek...wake up...n confront every obstacles....

xde la pandai sgt pon...sy sendiri maseh single n available (promote diri jap)......so be it....tho ade rase sedey...it'll go away eventually.....sedey bkan ape...sbb xde geng nak beronggeng n berfoya2...huhuh.....kwn2 ramai nak kawen taun neh....one by one...i'm loosing my friend....insyaAllah tdklah ilang selamenye...


okeh..i bluffed....i did story things about me..hahaha...sengal....!

define friends....pelis...

saat2 jiwe kacau neh kan...mende2 kecik pon leh jadek besar rasenye..hati sy rapuh...sy mudah jeles...JELES??? bkn kat bf okeh...i dun have any bf pon....

tp jeles kat bff....wutdaaa....hmm...beliau pernah trase hati bile sy baek dgn ex beliau..sbb kami mmg kwn dah lame..then bile r/ship diorg dah ok..of coz la die x kesah kan bile aku baek ngan bf die..but now they broke up again..n this time for real punyo...dun think they ever get back again...for sum reason yg hampeh....n i dun entertain her ex anymore...xmo shbt trase hati buat kali kedue..

yg buat sy jiwe kacau x smene2...bagaimane beliau boley sgtla rapat ngan ex sy...why????????sy tau mereke bershbt...tetapi....n nape sy ade rase mereke akan ke jinjang pelamin..this is not impossible to happen la kan...jodoh d tgn Tuhan.,....i dun feel a thing towards that man anymore...i'm so over him...cume situasi ini...sy x brape boley trime....

hmmm...abaikan jek la...sy xnk pk lagek lps bgn esok pg...

psl jodoh....nape sy asyik bertgemu ngan org yg 2 taun lebey tua dr sy...?uh....ahah....tuh pon leh jiwe kacau...ntah pape ntah...byk lagek jiwe kacau neh...tp xleh nak mention...how i longing to have sumone that i can share with....haha...jiwe kacau lagek.....tp xmo kawen....nak share2 story jek...ade tak...ade tak???

off!

GreNaDe!!

"Easy come, easy go
That's just how you live, oh
Take, take, take it all,
But you never give
Should of known you was trouble from the first kiss,
Why were they open?
Gave you all I had

And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked,
Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby;
But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no
Black, black, black and blue beat me till I'm numb
Tell the devil I said “hey” when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman,
That's just what you are, yeah,
You’ll smile in my face then rip the breaks out my car
Gave you all I had

And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby;
But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire, ooh
You’ d watch me burn down in flames
You said you loved me you're a liar
Cause you never, ever, ever did baby...
But darling I’ll still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby;
But you won't do the same.
No, you won’t do the same,
You wouldn’t do the same,
Ooh, you’ll never do the same,
No, no, no, no "

oh yes..yes..yes...ntah nape aku ngah kemaruk lagu neh..melody die n lyric (definitely) die sgt best...sampai buat ringtone! huwahhh....and a colleague caught me tgh nyanyi sambil buat gaye penuh emosi..uhh....malu!!! well...die br nampak d other side of me...ngeee

what hurts d most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let ?em out

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though
Goin' on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And havin' so much to say
(Much to say)
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do, oh
Oh yeah

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
(To say)
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

Not seein' that lovin' you
That's what I was trying to do, ooo

thats wut i'm trying to do....

seruan pulau nami...huwahhhh

"Hembusan bayu memecah sunyi penjuru
Alam maya yang dicipta oleh Pencipta
Siang dan malam silih berganti entahkan berhenti
Di bumi ini ketenangan yang dicari
Tapi apakah akan ditemui

Hanyalah berserah padaNya
Kerna Dia Maha Segalanya

Korus
Tanpa disangka dugaan tiba
Turut kata pasti akan binasa
Hebatnya badai melanda
Menggoncang jiwa
Oh kita berdoa
Agar ditemukan cinta ini
Dengan yang lebih memahami
Oh hati ini yeah
Kasihku

Antara dua hampiri menagih jiwa
Ketentuan tidak mengenal siapa
Redha dengan apa takdirNya
Pasti ada tersirat hikmahnya"

erh....aku dah kene sampuk hantu pulau nami...gegegege......but hayati lirik itu yea.....really soothing... n sumhow jd doa kpd diri ini......nice okeh.......kerane liriknye sy tertarek....oh....x dpt bygkan..cam goosebumps lak dgr lagu neh.....maybe sbb liriknye yg menyentuh jiwe....

Hanyalah berserah padaNya
Kerna Dia Maha Segalanya

smoge dgn berserah kpdNya yg lebey maha mengetahui...akan membawe sy kpd kebaikan....insyaAllah.... 

tdklah niat sy utk lukakan hati hambaNya yg laen...andai ada yg terguris krn perbuatan n keputusan sy....maafkan sy...sy doakan yg terbaek utk anda.....sy ade alasan sendiri utk berkate tdk.....n pls don't force me....ngeee

oh..bermaen2 lagek d kepale sy lagu ini......lalalalala

if i were a boy

ngehngehngeh...berputar jek lagu tuh..terigt jek zmn dolu2 mase lagu neh br kua....huhu....sedar x sedar...dah lebey 2 taun dah...rase cam baru jek lagek dgr lagu neh........igt lagek..mase nak hafal lagu neh....sambel maen pet society kat fesbuk...gile ar!!!hahaha

arituh ade keje kat HQ...so pegila sane....bile nampak ade satu spot parking..terigt plak mase ade kursus kat sane dulu....muahahahahah...teringat bukannye ape..sbb mase tuh pegi ngan colleagues...diorg ar yg hasot aku parking kat situ..kate diorg jgn risau..xde pape punye...aleh2...blk jek...tgk ade clamp...hampes...so aku let them do all deal...muahaha..sungguh hebat mereke itu..drpd kene 50hengget...bayor 7 hengget utk ticket parking jek..hebat kan kan kan..then d next day..menyenangkan lagek kitorg..sbb bdk2 neh dah kautim ngan mat bangla tuh..muahahahaha....gelak keji sket.....ye ar...bukannye ape....dah name pon HQ...slh kitorg ke kalau parking x cukop...manusie yg dtg tuh berdoyonnnn.....

semlm....hari ry qurban...abah buat satu bahagian....nazar....alhamdulillah..Allah dah makbulkan doa kami sekeluarge..smoge 'ianya' berkekalan ke akhirnye.....

ahhhhhhhh.....aku maken gemok.....penat ar...tp mkn best.....mslh psychology yg x terbendung.....food is my best medicine...tenang jiwe sy...

despair..frustration...

d title itself..astaghfirullah..jgn sampai sy jd org yg putus harapan n menolak ketentuan allah..

Hati xtau nak kate ape..remuk..renyuk..hancur...
Really need sumone to talk to...but it's too p & c...i dont trust anyone..anymore..byk kali aku kene tikam..tp kdg2 xserik..tetap pecayekan org..

Ya Allah..berikan kekuatan kpdku agar aku dpt berikan kekuatan itu pd org laen...jgn aku kalah dgn ketentuanMu..jgn aku berpaling dr imanku..jgn aku gelojoh mencari jln penyelesaian..

Yg d dpn mate xnmpak..yg jauh jg hendak dcari..yg elok xnk d ambik..yg busuk jg d jdkan santapan..
manusie..ujian mu besar..jgn igt jd khalifah kat bumi ni senang..

missing u...

i mean...i miss my blog okeh...huhu...sudah lame x luah prasaan kat sini..dok pendam saje la kan...wut to do....heheh....

since raye until now...remain d same...busy dgn urusan duniawi...owhhhhh.....sedeynye kehidupan begini....nak sedey sgt pon xleh.kang spt xmo trime takdir Allah...percayelah hani..pasti Allah dah aturkan kehidupan yg lebey baek...

almost december...n if i don't do anything dgn pantas...my life will definitely hancur berkecai.....oh...mase depanku..bagaimanekah kamu???harap baek2 saje....

blk raye arituh..as usual la kan..especially bile org tgk abg2 dah kawen...so..adeknye bile???okeh...kene digest ngan soklan2 camtuh starting from now onwards....bak kate mak..biase la...org bile tgk kite dah besar...org suke tny soklan2 camtuh..nak2 org2 kat kampong...when u turned to 24.....u r considered andartu okeh...huhu...scary merry okehhh......kembali kpd takdir Allah..... :)

keje,,?ohhh............sy bersyukur sy maseh bekerje....alhamdulillah.....wpon menimbunsssss..hheheh