frustration n disappointment.....

too much pekere yg tejadi lately...these past few weeks sgt menyeksekan....not only me...tp kwn2 sekeliling....upset sungguh rasenye....

tatkale neh allah uji kite sume sameade bole hadapi @ tdk.....mengapekah????? kan sng klu sume nye bjln lancar.....tp nnt kite akan mudah lupe plak kan....n lupe sape pencipte kte....

aku sedar...adekalenye...bile aku berdepan dgn pelbagai ujian....aku pk blk...rupenye..ade silap yg aku da lakukan..same ade dgn allah...atau sesame manusie sdiri.....kdg kale aku lupe tjwb aku sbg khalifah kat bumi neh....dats d worst...sbb ape pon kte lakukan..xleh lupe pd 5 tuh...

tp manusie....dah terantuk br nak teradah........br kembali pd Allah.....aku pon camtuh jgak...bile hepi...lupe sgalenye....ya Allah...byk yg aku buat silap...sbb tuh Allah uji aku....aku tau akan lps sume neh satu hari nnt

dlm ati neh dok terigt beliau jek..mengape!!??? beliau da bahagie dgn org laen...da xkesah aku pon.........bangsat betol ... he dont deserve me.... stiap ari aku doa...ya Allah..jauhkan la ingatanku thdp beliau.......

smoge aku kuat menghadapi sume neh......

cintaku bukannye dipakai buang... :(

misjudgement....

there are certain things aren't suppose to happen.....yet, it happened.....if only people could control their emotions n be more relevant of their mind n thoughts....including me....


it's all up to us 2 decide wut's our life's path n journey we're heading to...

sum things can't be judge by one side n conclude that by one's perception.....there'll always a story n reasons lies behind that...sadly...people get easily touched by the fake expression n behavior by other party......becoz they've been blinded by d beauty n grace....FAKE!!!

all are depends by sane mind to judge n to think......don't get too attach with sumthing u don't know d whole!!!

friendships are made not to be betrayed!!

it's easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend!!!

"u" know wut i meant by all these !!!!!! stop pretending being an innocent !!

21 july...

huuhuh.....hari yg......xtau nak gambarkan ape...

started ngan penjelajahan ke bndr sh alam....after session habeh at 12pm.......g mkn kat pak munawer's...lazat as always...cume anak die yg cute tuh jek xde...maklumle...bdk skolah...kne g skolah la...teman elin anta ina yg kelewatan masok keje...hukhuk.....then...b

lk ke mais...amek keter

at 1st...nak g lib ngan anis...maklumle...allergic sket ar masok lib neh sorg2...trauma...haha....tp.........tuka plan....direct g umah bro sham(kazenku) @ kt dmsr instead....kunun2 buat keje la kan....asgmn yg aku dok tangguh tuh...haram gak....lps da men ngan nieces ku yg comey2 mcm makhani mrk....decided dat i'm not gonna attend d claz for today...siap survey kehadiran agik...langgar jek...yg x thn tuh d way anis racun xyah g..... siap tunjuk tanduk...tp soh aku solat asar dlu....anis2...."keter sape neh" + "robbie williams pa cita ha" = anis....ssh betol nak sediekan skema jwpn utk soklan die...oh..btw...sdpkan air aku td???? yummy!

pastuh..da alang2 kat sane...g ziarah le kwn2 yg berdekatan kannnnn....lps maghrib...ttdo lak....dok tunggu reply dr jidah...ke mane kamu shbtku??? aiyoooo......da g planet laen ke???? tekad betol aku x g claz arinih...around 9.....blk umah saje laaaaaa

mase sampai umah...msg yg sgt menggembirekan hati ini.....
"nsb baek awak xdtg arinih..claz pak ray mmg xde ari slase until mid aug...so d claz will be on friday".....woohoo..thx kak teen .....x tercemar le attendance aku....tpppppp....redundant lak ngan lagek satu.....uwaaa...penin mak cik da neh.....da la da separe sengal....huhu

lps mkn...nek ats n freshen up...segar rasenye....on9 pule la.....tesentuh sgt ngan kate2 dr ecah kat wall......sgt tersentuh...hingge mngalirkan airmate....tetibe jatoh jek....uwaaa.........mcm tercucuk kat jantung neh....thanks ecah for sharing ......

a few other matters yg lom setel...maseh tinggal tande tny....hope shbtku kuat....
igt...shbt2 laen n kuarge dcc anda n menyayangi anda!!!!!!

smoge ari esok lbey baek drpd arinih n semlm.....amin..

ngantuk gaban da ney.......~!@#$$%^^&*(

my galfrens....

sgt sedey dgn kejadian2 sblm neh....bagaikan kne penampar kat muke neh....pastuh jatoh kat j/raye...kene geles plak ngan lori.....hancor!!!

everything happens for a reason...Allah xkn uji hambeNya klu Dia tau kite x mampu nak hadapinye...

sudah terang lagek bersuloh.....tepok dade tny slere....msg2 ade bahagian msg2...cube terime kenyataan yg itu tlh belaku ats kite.....dan itu bkn utk kite......

how i wish i could replace u dears...igt...family n kwn2 kte maseh ade dcc kte....pk kan mase dpan kte yg maseh jauh....kdg2 ape yg kte hrp...rancang...Allah x makbulkan..sbb Allah dah aturkan yg lebey baek utk kte...

"Cinta sejati adalah apabila kita masih mampu tersenyum untuknya apabila melihat kebahagiaan yang dimilikinya.."


a fren sent me this tru text msg when i was down n felt hopeless.....thx!

Aku minta pd Tuhan setangkai bunga, Ia beri kaktus bduri...
aku minta kupu2, diberi ulat berbulu....
aku sedih n keciwa...namun kemudian.....
kaktus itu berbunga indah skali, dan ulat itu pon menjd kupu2 yg cantek....
itulah jln TUHAN..indah pd msnye....
ALLAH tdk mmberi ape yg kte harapkan, ttp Dia mmberi ape yg kte perlukan...
Kkdg kte sedih, keciwa, terluka....ttp jauh d ats sgalenye....
Dia tlh mengatur yg terbaek dlm kehidupan kte.....

wahai shbt2ku....

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quick msg

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cukupla aku sewel sorg...jgn la korg sume pon sewel same....buat sesuatu pk dlu....mase dpan jauh lagek....br jek umo 24....jgn nyesal gaban bile da umo 42...mmg akan belaku penyesalan dlm idop kite..tp....cube jdkan pengalaman parents kte sbg tauladan n sempadan......parents kite mesti nakkan yg terbaek utk kite.....wpon kdg2 diorg kate die xkesah kte nak buat ape....deep inside...diorg tetap risaukan kte...PLEASE!!!

everything...anything yg korg buat......think in depth....PLEASE!!

aku remind korg..so next time u'll remind me......xsume yg kte buat @ pk tuh betol....kdg kite xnmpk impact nye skang...think of our family too...n rakan2 yg laen...jgn sampai kte idop tanpe restu dr parents...kbhgiaan xkn kekal lame...mcm tuh gak klu kite bine kebhagiaan tuh berpasakkan batu nisan org laen...xde sekumin niat pon nak halang korg buat pape..........tp fikir betol2!!! PLEASE!!!!

aku syg korg sume...please keep me in ur prayers!!



thx 4 ur time...

when i should do sumthing else!!!

gals.....n guys...(klu ade)

tlh lame rsnye dat person bediam diri neh......pe slh kte sbenanye???? how on earth we would know klu x diberitau..... kite bknnye tukang tilik yg hebat...jauh lagek waris nujum pak belalang.....tho we knew wut happened kan....

juz let Allah decides ape yg jd sterusnye.....we know where we stand...n for wut for kannnn....

we dont judge people....tp sdiri mmbuke pekung di dade....wut else can we do..we trust dat person sgt2...die we overly reacted ?? x kn..??? hahaha

"slimut" xleh pakai.....tp nak buang trase syg....byk da berbakti....sigh

windu kwn2 claz dolu......mase dok umah komander...c tmah ade....mase dok lua...elin ade.....skang sape pon xde.... :(( .... aku asyik lost jek..i was thinking 2 drop out..n keep thinking..letey la ulang alik....skt bdn...saket ati....skt kpale....skt poket!! wakakaka


shira jgn mara ek..aku anta mms gamba dolu2 tu....tuh mase kte prank bday anis n nira rsnye.....ina yg forward kat aku dlu...sgt "jelite" kte waktu tuh...wakakakakakaka......

.berusehe keras utk menjayekan mlm tersebut....dtmbh pule dgn air "coke" yg sgt sdp!!

oh ye nis....aku br prsn notes yg ko letak dlm my diary...tekiu so much utk kate2 itu....!! luv ya!
xoxoxo
i told u didn't i...? hahaha ....u met him for good kan kelmaren....mcm mase aku klh betting ngan elin (yg korg 1 umah kerumun aku tuh)..... mcm wake up call utk kte.... ade hikmahnye... insyaAllah....

penat tp hepi...ngeeeeee

last nite was awful n hectic.....lame aku x g claz...suddenly masok2 jek cam kne electric shock..gegegegege....

blk quite late...tp klua ngan mmbr xde lak penat kan...kol 12 pon cam br kol 9...huh....beza sungguh...feels so different as i entered d clazroom.....many people yet feels empty....few faces dat i knew still .................... almost bring tears to my eyes....lucky....i don't......

d hepi part..

mimah called tetibe..kate nak jumpe..since dlm claz agik die msg...tp lupe nak reply lak....isk...aku igtkan die nak bg kad kawen....sbb sgt tbe2 kannnnnnn....mimah2......

upenye die bg bday cake...uwaaa...terharu...n

die wish blated bday.....(control airmate hani)....2 pieces lak tuh...die soh buat pilihan...kot2 aku x mkn...... blueberry cheese n choc indulgence.....korg tau je la aku mkn yg mn kan....

kitorg borak2 sat d bwh pokok bunge ketas mak aku....mimah...as always....ayat2 die sume buat aku nak gelak maut...thx..die mcm2 tau2 jek aku windu die..

received few good news....things aren't all bad jek kan.....Allah maha mengetahui...

........anis n elins.....juz can't hold d tears to fall....thx for missing me n ur words at ym td deeply touches my heart ...thx.....