hari yg gerhana

huh.........mengapekah...apekah...bagaimanekah...siapekah....ape lagek kah???

sy x suke bile sy dok pk org laen....sy mimpi org laen...org yg sy pk adlh utk sy melupakan org laen....tp laen pule yg jdnye.....

i need me for me.....

surprise...surprise....

adey....tekojut den tbe2 jek ade manager tau psl kitorg g intebiu....wutdaaaaaaaa.....siap mention ade yg sanggup g sabah sarawak.......wutdaaaaaaaaa........

to be honest....yes.....i'm willing to transfer either to sabah or sarawak....who cares....n why should they bother anyways?? bosan gaban dah..baek aku jumpe org2 baru yg mmg x penah jumpe aku...drpd org yg aku knal...tp xmo jumpe aku...terlalu byk kekecewaan aku ngan org2 cni....bukannye aku harapkan lebey pon...but they really disappointed me.....

same ade jantan.....atau dlm persahabatan sesame jantina...don't expect more from me if u can't give even a little to me.....sedey.....slh aku ke???????tp ape?????aku kne blaja idop sorg gak...soon..sume kwn2 kawen......aku????ke aku yg emosi....pegi la mam....tp bile aku x contact..kate aku sombong....yg ko x contact???sebok??? ko jek la sebok..aku dok ngangkang jek kat umah eh.......habeng!!

aku tgk camne kwn kakak ipar aku disisihkan rakan2 stlh mereke bekawen...pity her...yg len sebok ngan family..can't blame them..tanggungjawab mereke....tp apekan daye..hmmmm.....i picture myself in her shoe.....

happy tgk kwn2 happy....but at d same time...i envy them...so much....duh..ape la hani neh kan...whining je keje............................duh duh duh

kuciwe

uwaaa...kuciwe gaban lps intebiu pg td..mmg xtarget dpt pon..dunno..beserah je...

Bkn aku sorg je yg tekejut..kwn2 yg laen pn same..demm..igt kan intebiu utk post ktorg skang neh.upenye unit laen..dan2 plak nk tny psl IP..taun ble lak aku blaja tu...mane aku igt..kalau mention 'internet protocol,. Agak2 leh dpt ke post tuh? Hahah...

Yg lebey mengejutkan..met dgn org yg tau aku pnah suke die..hahah..klaka..bkn suke ape pn..takat layan mate jek..tp ble ade kwn mulut tempayan..jln cite tuh maken menarek plak..hahah..lawak2..

depresi x melampau

quite tense dgn intebiu yg bakal menjelme.......haven't prepare anything...xdo maso....xkn nak buat kat opis....org nampak jek ape yg kte buat..len la i ade bilik sdiri ke.....dok kat cerok ke......dunno wut future brings me....


beserah pd takdir......sy akan mencube sedey upaye sy....da lame x p intebiu..nebes gaban pon ade......

workloads smaken hari smaken "ramai".....keltihan begande.....xphm betol dgn bos sy tuh...sebok soh kitorg independent.....dah tuh anak die nak cr brg kawen yg simple tuh pon nak tunggu mak die....blaja 5 taun kat jerman...dok kampong ke hape?? sampai kl xtau nak cr sdiri plak.....o oh...sbb gune duet mak die....imagine...makeup n face care jek > 2k....umaang ai....pastuh beli handbag cap org tue...hege 600....bek bg aku..marc jacobs i leh dpt 2...

i need me...for me...yup....sudey byk sy lakukan utk mnjg ati sekeliling.....xmo cite..kang x ikhlas.....tp ....hmm.....penat la.....org kate nmpk aku mcm xde mslh....but certain org yg pandai bace air wajah..sungguh mengerti diriku...tekiu very much from my bottom heart....

intbiu...

alhamdulillah..berkat pertolongan sorg shbt......nxt week ade intebiu utk contract.....but it has to be kept as a secret.....reveal amongst us jek....kalau bos2 tau....masak hangus la kitorg.....sbb post exec xde kat cni...

xkesah ar..mmg aku xmo dok kat ST agik....i dun care e e e e...hakhak..kacang lupekan kulit sungguh....apekan daye...sedey gak.....kwn2 kat cni best...wpon ade gak 2-3 bangkai yg lahanat.....

pray for d best to come...aisey..kje wa byk lagek perlu disetelkan neh.....

sudey lepas

akhirnye sebuah lagek kesah...alhamdulillah.... da selesai kawen abg aku....x sangke..da besar da die...now adapting my new life.......sbg satu2nye adek yg blom kawen....suck......arituh ramai betol la yg tny....diorg da xde soklan laenke......

diorg x tgk aku nye fizikal camne ke??? bile aku jwb xde calon jek--xkan le xde.....wutda........mmg dah xde...nak buat camne....sape la mengkehendakkan aku????diri ini hny pacar yg hine.....diorg x pk ke aku trase ke hape ke/.????karate sekor2 kang....

d best part......encik A (bkn name sbena)..dtg.....ya allah....hari yg panas ngan terik mentari itu bagaikan salju yg menerjah tubuh...wallamak...............sejuk betolllaaaa........can;t help it!!! slalunye kan...bile aku beckp ngan org...ngan mudah jek aku patahkan ayat2 diorg...tetapi ngan insan itu...aku gagal.....pndgn matenye buat aku cair!! hoho...rindu perasaan itu pd diri...kini kembali!!! yeah!!!! berdegup jantungku....rinduku dtg lagiiii....ahahahah

sewel hani neh.....but

sedey mengenangkan naseb kwn2....byk yg aku x mampu nak tlg....aku mampu doakan jek....smoge shbtku kembali ke pangkal jln n mnyedari hakikat idop neh maseh pjg....u r so brilliant n smart....deserves better.......pd shbt ku yg sorg lagek...smoge laluan kebahagiannye dipermudahkan...ade hikmah d sblk kejadian.....parents perlu diutamekan...

smoge sume berbahgie....

shocked to death....

semlm received news yg mengejutkan...beberape la gak.....so sad n low...disappointed pon ade.......last person on earth yg aku pikir buat camtuh...hmm...xde last....tp...hmmmm.....


sgt terkejut......manusie itu sgt pintar...tp sedey mengenangkan krn cinte bute beliau...jauh beliau "berkelane".......what went wrong???? slh ibu bapakah??? atau slh sdiri......


mahu membantu...tp tdk mampu....berdoa yg mampu kupanjatkan ke hadrat ilahi....i'm not a good daughter my self......n makes me even wonders....have i did d same or worst toward my parents...yes i'm disobey them...yes i nvr hear them....yes....i lied to them....yes i hurt them....eventho i said so many times that i luv them....does it enough????yes...i pray for them.....n does it too enough to make me as a good child to them....


every day aku dgr my parents ckp about their probs etc......habes aku ??? another whining...anak x mndgr kate


dear Allah....please grant us health, iman n strength....