sorry seems to be d hardest word..

salam pembuke bicare....

kengkunun cam supan2 la kan....

act...sorry la sbb aku tlh merisaukan shbt2ku tempoh hari...didn't mean anything to make u gals worried dgn tibe2....it was all bcoz things dtg bertimpe2 in one day....so i was thinking by keeping me away from d world will ease me n makes me better....which was not pon......budus!! ntah dr mane aku blaja method neh...kunon nak try la... mslhnye xde la dasat mn pon....mmbr laen lagek terok mslhnye yg dhadapi...mine was juz ciput jek....tp maklumle kan...at time like this....i mean fragile stage....simple matter could turned to complicated n disaster......wahaha....sa

je jek nak exaggerate lebey sket....minggu lps pon minggu bunge raye....tp utk ben...bunge api!! extra sensitive.....

i know i shouldn't drag u gals into this......korg xde kne mengene pon....huh....cam gampang pon ade kan......sorry again....

now i'm a lot better...don;t worry ok kwn2...i know u gals concerns me as i am to u too...tdk terniat melakukan pkr tersebot...felt like i had disappointed u gals.....sorry again.....i need some time n space to digest all d inputs in my stupid brain maybe....."memory card" da kene virus agaknye....

jgn risau....aku tdk akan melakukan pkr2 yg extra stupid....korg knal aku sape n camne kannnnn...
i'm like an open book...it's up to u either to understand me n know how to read me....or don't know how read me...but aku tau mostly korg librarian kan......rujuk AACR2!!!!! aku bkn le "malaikat yg turun dr kayangan" yg perfectly born with superpowers bagai....... i need ur advice n teguran berhemah mmbine...maybe it's a true nature of youngest child ...... rely onto people! konon cam independent jek rupe....tp aram....ssh nak buat decision....lately i keep on doing things yg aku regrets jek...s***....i miss my quality sleep so much.....


redang sgt best......even tho there was unwanted memories yg appeared here n then.....haha...sengal....."devil wears prada" aku leh teke "300".....cam gampang...

sian anis sampai kne contact alyn tru fb tp no reply....minah tuh pon lame x on9....maapkan beliau yea....

thx for all ur luvs n understanding......

akhir kalam....

"hanya ALLAH yg mengetahui"....mmuah!!!! syg korg!!!

justice n forgiveness

juz a quick n short note b4 i go 2 bed..

there was a friend of mine ...thanks to him for introducing me to this man..quite long ago tho.. a good preacher...i guess by his appearances on utube n speeches..knowledgeable n relevantly connects d current issues wit d verses from Quran n d way he conveyed his messages...by nouman ali khan on utube n i posted it on fb...really good one!! attracted by d topic of justice n forgiveness..(in case sumone missed it n want to watch it..here's d link... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OhcgJx3sMU8 )...others are as good as this one too! watch it yourselves 4 more!

for now....am more focusing on forgiveness as it more....uhh...hmmm....how should i say it...duh...pape je la kan...mostly we have d tendency to seek revenge coz we r angry upon matters dat bothers us n such..we knew dat it'll juz causing us bad/harm than good..whether to ourselves or to dat person involves..still we ignores it...continuing d hates n angers manipulating our mind...huh..setan sungguh!

we left wit 2 options in this world...
1> u can seek for revenge
2> u can forgive

which 1 do u prefer? at times when we are at stage of "setan menyelubungi diri"...we lost who we were b4...when we chose d 1st option..it's d payback of an evil coz evil juz like it...n dats when we become overboard....

u can take revenge 2 d person dat harm u..nonetheless u juz keep it 2 yourself?? n days or maybe weeks, months n years later it starts 2 piling up... kababoommm!! :p dat would be d scariest part dat i wouldn't want imagine!! nauzubillah...

don't u think it'is better to cover a page,it's like.. u covered a previous page n move on 2 next page!! only u know d way 2 do dat... showing mercy towards a person n courtesy are quite hard to commit rite??? it's easy 2 say but it so damn hard 2 do... juz a thought that might be good 2 practice..

while i'm juz a normal person n reacts like other normal persons do...tp extra budus lebey sket ar...may Allah helps me tru all my sadness n grieves..frustrations, betrayal, n disappointments...n same goes 2 my dear friends who had suffered d same "issues" as mine...altho in different "genre"... lots of things need 2 be done...n 2 be explored! chin up gals!




if this note has been an annoyance 2 some people who read it....."such a philosophy n drama kununnn..post jek lebey..buatnye x..."--> 2 those people who might think like this.....WTH....wutever!! :P like i care .....sape soh ko bace sengal?????

sekian trime kaseh..!

ps: kpd "encik yg nak ke surau" itu td...trime kaseh diucapkan...n to my friends yg sdg berbahagie...may ur happiness remains till death do u apart..hahah..... n for certain other friends plak...may u find ur true n unconditional love n happiness on top of others' grave...huhu....

sengal2 ubikayu

wahaha...lege rsnye da pulangkan jubah utim tuh.....klu x...xpsl2 lak aku utang ngan utim lagek....whoaaa

tekiu to miss byt sbb sudi menemani sy yea.....klu x mati sesat aku dlm uitm tuh...
maklumle...br dtg dr kampong....seram tgk tmpt2 besar camtuh...tekiu gak kpd encik/pakcik/dato ntah sape ntah yg menunjuk arah tuju...huhu....xkenal la anda sape...tp anda agak mmbantu!! trime kaseh juge kpd bro kat kaunter...(ps: anda sgt cumel)

tp kesengalan bergande arinih..da la xckp tdo...akibatnye....nk masok highway pon slh...jdnye longggway...camne leh x prsn.....maybe sbb dok tgh rancak bercerite ngan byt dok luah prsaan x pueh ati...wahaha....xpueh ati ke??? ntah le...yg sewaktu dgnnye la kot...

then.....bile nak sign surat pon leh slh sign..hani mmg sengal arinih....aduyai....pasti pembace surat berkenaan memaki hamun serte mencaci2 sy apb mmbuke surat tesebot.....maap ye.....da la berutang...buat la care berutang....cam gangster lak buat suke ati...muhehehe...abah aku kan ade share kat c2.. :P

juz discovered sumthing new yday! intipatinye....jgn tpu org la sial!! it will not be as d best solution to create hatred by others to u!! stupid ideology btw...klu betine katekan betine.klu jantan katekan jantan..haha..but u have such a wonderful n thoughtful friend yg sgt kuat memback up..good! even tho die cume tau zero! ..wonder how u manage living a life like this................. frankly... i wish dat this is not true..aku tau...it has nothing 2 do wit me..tp rs cam...cam ape ek??biase la...aku kan suke emo lebey...mengikut ati & prasaan... tekiu to sara n alyn...sbb ape ek? haha u know wut did 4 me!

oh...berckp psl alyn....mane ko pegi wahai pompuan???? klu xnk lunch same pon...sms kan ade!! betau le awal2.....aduyai shbtku yg sorg neh...suke ilang tibe2.....ko tdo x bgn2 ke hape?? trime kaseh wanie krn menceriekan hari online ku! haha

legek satu hal da setel!! nak setel yg len plak...too many on d list rite now....xtau nak buat yg mn dlu...biase la aku... :P sgt miserable....need some breakaway!!!

sandiwara dunie....

tertarek dgn perkataan yg dilemparkan oleh ina sblm neh...

sgt mendlm & menarek ayat tersebut..."sandiwara"....

ala2 cam spektra(slot drama kat rtm dolu2.....zmn xde astro).....even sumtimes jd dlm family pon ade yg nak bersandiwara ( no offend..i didn't mention or refer to any family as neither to mine...juz in general la ye..admit it..mn2 family pon ade prob kan??)....name pon manusie biase...

sakeeeettttttttt ati klu org dok blakon tp xtau bile nak say "cut"....n back to reality...nyampah kuase 8...rsnye aku pon same je...dats y la namenye pon sandiwara dunie...penat rsnye camneh la....

sgt ssh utk berkongsi kesah dgn sesape sbb watak tuh dikenali & dpndg tinggi oleh org laen...asyik nak pegang watak patagonis n hero jek..org len...akan slalu jd antagonisnye plak....xnk tuka ke??? ku sgt berkecil ati...iskkkkk....rs nak lari g namibia jek...nyaman!!

camne lak ngan org yg suke reke cite utk bersandiwara??? lari dr mslh etc...sampai bile ek??hebat kan...tahan jek..tp idop org len yg xkeruan...syabas!! bagaikan.....menggode seekor anjeng dgn mknn....n then blg or sorok mknn tuh tmpt laen..akhirnye tekapai2 anjeng tuh mencr mknn tuh td...(nak gantikan watak anjeng ngan babi pon boley....rs cam penah kuarkan perumpaan neh sblm neh...lantak le...xleh nak pk perumpamaan len waktu camneh).....

saket otak rsnye....apekah obat utk ati yg tensi & bengang???? rsnye tau jwpannye....DIA...

rs smaken jauh....no wonder lagek byk mslh timbul...

aku yg alpa!! poyos...

skeping hati wanita...

copy n paste dr emon....tekiu dear!

1. Sensitif- tidak bermaksud suka merajuk tp hanya ingin bmanja dan dapatkan perhatian.

2. Cerewet- tidak bermaksud fussy tidak tentu hala, kadangkala ingin lelaki mengikut kata-katanya sekali sekala.

3. Halus- ibarat sehelai sutera, cantik, mulus, lembut dan mudah tercarik dan koyak. Walaupun seorang memaafkan seseorg yg lain atas sbb kesalahannya, biasanya wanita akan ingat keslahan tersebut untuk disimpan jadi pengajaran. Bukannya dendam

4. Ikhlas- ikhlas seorg wanita tidak perlu diragui

5. Korban- wanita sanggup berkorban apa sahaja untuk seseorang yang amat disayanginya termasuk ibu bapa, anak-anak dan suami. Wanita amat tabah.

6. Prihatin- sentiasa memerhatikan keadaan sekeliling dalam diam

7. Manja- walaupun dia seorang wanita yang pandai berdikari, naluri seorang wanita masih lagi tetap seorang wanita.

8. Ego- wanita yang terlalu sayangkan kekasihnya sanggup menolak ketepi egonya apabila bersemuka dengan yang dicintainya.

9. Cinta- cinta pertama bagi wanita ialah yang paling dalam dan tulus.

10. Seks- bukan segala-galanya buat wanita kerana wanita diciptakan dgn 9 nafsu dan satu akal. Lelaki pula dijadikan dengan 9 akal dan satu nafsu. Fungsi lelaki adalah membimbing wanita dan bukan mghanyutkannya

pelbagai...dlm 1 hari....

ngantuks....but xleh pejam mate?? y??? lupe bace doa sblm tdo kot.....


btw...


hepi n sronok lps blk kduri kawen azuan n yani..wpon agak lmbt sampai dssbkan kerje..rushing utk pulang ke melati.jln lak jam! erh....smoge mereke bhgie ke akhir hayat hendaknye....klu ikut background family diorg..aku leh agak la kan anak diorg brape ramai nnt....huhu..dssbkan die da kawen....xleh "buat ketupat" ngan die lagek da...die slalu bg nasehat yg mmbine kat aku...bgs bdk neh...lps neh aku kne direct kat dr. fadzilah kamsah le nmpknye... :P

tp nape ramai x caye diorg kawen pd umo camneh??? diorg da ready...on je! yg blm....jgn ngengade yea! prepared urself! bkn takat material jek...kematangan jua perlu...esp laki la kan....imam dlm family...camne nak buat decisions if u can't separate things n prioritize!....xkesah la apepon jua mslh yg dihadapi..dats y dunie purak prande skang neh....kebykn tgjwb serah kan pompuan....mn laki??? ade...bkn xde....no offend la yek...for those yg listen to nasyid le...igt lagi lirik fatamorgana by hijjaz??? n one or more songs by nada murni...lupe lak tajuknye.....sgt betol sumenye!! tahniah pd gadis2 jelite yg mampu menawan jejake2!! (either bf org/tunang org/laki org/bapak org/atok org) neh ape yg aku lihat tru my observations la...mostly....

.......oh ye....wut "sisters in islam" fought for n representing of actually??? which i don't c any relevant issues to fight for n arguments..bla3...


dlm kegembiraan terselit sdkt prasaan x best (frustrated n upset n sad etc...combination).....ade

gak mmbr yg xdpt dtg esp farah hazwani n farah waheda (hmmmm....pakat ke ape diorg neh...mmntg name farah tuh same)..yg c jidah lak leh lupe mamat tuh kawen arinih...da sampai nilai 3 br igt..cr bj raye la tuh :P ... n juge psl.......................

trase juge dri ini punce pershbtn org laen terputus/terganggu....tdk baek begitu...perkare ini adlh di ant sy dgn beliau..anda yg tdk terlibat tdk patut begitu..."anda2" phm ape yg sy maksudkan!! tdk terniat n terlintas kat kpale otak neh nak mencetuskan perkare2 sedemikian...apekan daye....

terkesan n tersentap gak dgn kate2 dd (bf byt)....wpon sdkt jek jumlah pekataan yg digunekan tp sgt terkesan d dlm ati..cam x caye jek kua dr mulot die..muke beliau jelas terlihat keikhlasan...terkesima utk 5.26 saat...tekiu so much...wpon dd x dpt bace kat cni....kuang3....

pulang je umah.....abah n mak ajak g dgr ceramah...wahaha..anak yg mndgr kate...insap skejap....tp more mcm kursus pra perkahwinan dlu jek...wakakakakakaka.......n of coz byk gak nasehat n pengajaran dlm idop la...so inspirational ....itu yg diperlukan buat ms neh!

thx to sara for d novel..sungguh terharu..akan ku cube sedaye mungkin utk habeskan novel itu!!!gambatte hani!!!

yg mmbuat otak aku dok memikir skang neh..lps dpt msg dr elin...hua....nak tuka mode ke x!!!!!!! aku dr dlu dok pk....pros n cons utk berbuat demikian...lom dpt petunjuk lagek nmpknye..my life compass is missing again..ilang arah kembali!!! sigh....but don't feels bad elin....i will follow u...at d end...nota mu jua yg kucari !! huhu windu kamoo btw....n daro laen gak..haha

finally...

@ 2.26am....







akhirnye dpt tgk cite he's just not dat into u....

agak best utk ditonton.....now i know y org dok soh tgk cite tuh...ala2 cam cite cinta..

sumenye related ngan watak laen..

it's a luvly+sweet movie btw...

ade lagek list movie nak tgk....tp xde ms lagek...

hmmm.....

wut do u mean by learning lessons frm dat movie????

uwaa.....sok rutin biase...

oh yea....kpd bakal pengantin baru...yg mn ade dj tuh nnt...tlg la soh diorg jgn putarkan lagu sedey2....

i.e, pelamin anganku musnah, kesal, bapaku kawen lagek, di dalam kenangan ku etc.........

org nak kawen suppose kne la lagu yg hepi2 kan....ney sedey2 lak...x sesuai!!