i deserve to smile !!! yeah!

lupe nak betau kesah best dlm idop .... asyik yg saketkan ati jek kan...
ptg td mase otw back umah...tdgr lagu stacy oricco "i'm not missing u".....wahhhhhhhh...best....ayat2 nye sgt terkesan d dlm ati...mmg benar...."i dont feel d distance...i;m not missing u"...

betol neh....skali skale ade terigt la gak kan...tp...terganggu oleh prasaan..wahahaha.....alhamdulillah....

cume maseh sedey dgn situasi yg dialami oleh rakan2 yg laen....nak tlg..tp xtau nak tlg ape...n ape dayeku...ku hny insan biase...mampu mendoakan shj......

mmg sgale mslh yg kite hadapi tuh..sgt tertampar pd diri sdiri....bile org soh sbr..move on...u deserve better person..bla bla..etc...kte akan mara....n starts kate..."org xphm kite"...... sbb kte sbenanye yg xnk hadapi kenyataan n truth hurts....idop dgn menipu diri sdiri..padehal ape yg kite buat n teruskan lebey menyakitkan diri sdiri...

tepuk dade tanye la slere kan...kwn2 hanye bole menasehatkan n mendoakan...d rest..bgantung pd diri sdiri....

sgt merindui utk berjimba2 dgn shbt2 ku...
miss my galfrens so much!!!!!

sedey..hepi..sedey..hepi

huhu...mcm2 jadik kebelakangan neh....these past 3 weeks kot......sume jd bertimpe2...mak aku pon pelik gak..kiri kanan prob timbul...
allah nak uji sume org.....
bak kate seorg shbt yg mengingatkn shbt laen....x sempurna iman seseorang itu jike x diuji.....yerp...rite....
tersedar dgn kate2 tuh.... baru terase bhw allah sygkan sume hambeNye....bknla maksudnye sblm neh x sdr.....tp kini br terkesan d hati.....

allah xkn uji manusie tuh klu x mampu....tepulang pd kite nak trime n redha....syaitan n iblis dah janji akan bawak skali anak2 adam masok neraka....sbb tuh setan2 tuh hasot kite jgn buat ape yg allah suruh.....especially...jgn dgr ckp parents....sbb ...bwh telapak kaki mak kte tuh la syurge kite...

ssh sgt ke nak dgr ckp parents kte...aku pon prsn la kan....kdg2...panas jek ati neh nak dgr ckp parents....ikotkan ati neh nak melawan jek....bile nak buat baek..dan2 tuh la ati neh terdetik bkn2....astaghfirullah.....

tuh bab dgn parents....camne plak dgn lingkungan sosial kte???? kwn2..jiran tetangge...org ramai..penah x kte tepk......betol ke ape yg kte lakukan neh...kte da jlnkan tjwb kte ke???? mcm2 agik la kan....sume tuh amanah yg allah akan soal kte gak...hmm...da cukup ke amalan aku nak bwk ke "sane"..?

lately....rase nak marah jek.....kes psl kwn2 yg xdgr ckp org....ktegaq betol...then..kwn2 yg mkn kwn laen...sanggup manusie buat camtuh.... bile maken bsr neh..mcm2 mslh timbul...sume tuh utk mematangkan kte...aku tau...eventually...akan berakhir mslh tuh klu kte tau nak tangani camne...tuh jugakla bekalan kte ke hari tue utk kite didik anak2 kte plak..

hmm.....ngantuks suda.....out!!

frustration n disappointment.....

too much pekere yg tejadi lately...these past few weeks sgt menyeksekan....not only me...tp kwn2 sekeliling....upset sungguh rasenye....

tatkale neh allah uji kite sume sameade bole hadapi @ tdk.....mengapekah????? kan sng klu sume nye bjln lancar.....tp nnt kite akan mudah lupe plak kan....n lupe sape pencipte kte....

aku sedar...adekalenye...bile aku berdepan dgn pelbagai ujian....aku pk blk...rupenye..ade silap yg aku da lakukan..same ade dgn allah...atau sesame manusie sdiri.....kdg kale aku lupe tjwb aku sbg khalifah kat bumi neh....dats d worst...sbb ape pon kte lakukan..xleh lupe pd 5 tuh...

tp manusie....dah terantuk br nak teradah........br kembali pd Allah.....aku pon camtuh jgak...bile hepi...lupe sgalenye....ya Allah...byk yg aku buat silap...sbb tuh Allah uji aku....aku tau akan lps sume neh satu hari nnt

dlm ati neh dok terigt beliau jek..mengape!!??? beliau da bahagie dgn org laen...da xkesah aku pon.........bangsat betol ... he dont deserve me.... stiap ari aku doa...ya Allah..jauhkan la ingatanku thdp beliau.......

smoge aku kuat menghadapi sume neh......

cintaku bukannye dipakai buang... :(

misjudgement....

there are certain things aren't suppose to happen.....yet, it happened.....if only people could control their emotions n be more relevant of their mind n thoughts....including me....


it's all up to us 2 decide wut's our life's path n journey we're heading to...

sum things can't be judge by one side n conclude that by one's perception.....there'll always a story n reasons lies behind that...sadly...people get easily touched by the fake expression n behavior by other party......becoz they've been blinded by d beauty n grace....FAKE!!!

all are depends by sane mind to judge n to think......don't get too attach with sumthing u don't know d whole!!!

friendships are made not to be betrayed!!

it's easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend!!!

"u" know wut i meant by all these !!!!!! stop pretending being an innocent !!

21 july...

huuhuh.....hari yg......xtau nak gambarkan ape...

started ngan penjelajahan ke bndr sh alam....after session habeh at 12pm.......g mkn kat pak munawer's...lazat as always...cume anak die yg cute tuh jek xde...maklumle...bdk skolah...kne g skolah la...teman elin anta ina yg kelewatan masok keje...hukhuk.....then...b

lk ke mais...amek keter

at 1st...nak g lib ngan anis...maklumle...allergic sket ar masok lib neh sorg2...trauma...haha....tp.........tuka plan....direct g umah bro sham(kazenku) @ kt dmsr instead....kunun2 buat keje la kan....asgmn yg aku dok tangguh tuh...haram gak....lps da men ngan nieces ku yg comey2 mcm makhani mrk....decided dat i'm not gonna attend d claz for today...siap survey kehadiran agik...langgar jek...yg x thn tuh d way anis racun xyah g..... siap tunjuk tanduk...tp soh aku solat asar dlu....anis2...."keter sape neh" + "robbie williams pa cita ha" = anis....ssh betol nak sediekan skema jwpn utk soklan die...oh..btw...sdpkan air aku td???? yummy!

pastuh..da alang2 kat sane...g ziarah le kwn2 yg berdekatan kannnnn....lps maghrib...ttdo lak....dok tunggu reply dr jidah...ke mane kamu shbtku??? aiyoooo......da g planet laen ke???? tekad betol aku x g claz arinih...around 9.....blk umah saje laaaaaa

mase sampai umah...msg yg sgt menggembirekan hati ini.....
"nsb baek awak xdtg arinih..claz pak ray mmg xde ari slase until mid aug...so d claz will be on friday".....woohoo..thx kak teen .....x tercemar le attendance aku....tpppppp....redundant lak ngan lagek satu.....uwaaa...penin mak cik da neh.....da la da separe sengal....huhu

lps mkn...nek ats n freshen up...segar rasenye....on9 pule la.....tesentuh sgt ngan kate2 dr ecah kat wall......sgt tersentuh...hingge mngalirkan airmate....tetibe jatoh jek....uwaaa.........mcm tercucuk kat jantung neh....thanks ecah for sharing ......

a few other matters yg lom setel...maseh tinggal tande tny....hope shbtku kuat....
igt...shbt2 laen n kuarge dcc anda n menyayangi anda!!!!!!

smoge ari esok lbey baek drpd arinih n semlm.....amin..

ngantuk gaban da ney.......~!@#$$%^^&*(

my galfrens....

sgt sedey dgn kejadian2 sblm neh....bagaikan kne penampar kat muke neh....pastuh jatoh kat j/raye...kene geles plak ngan lori.....hancor!!!

everything happens for a reason...Allah xkn uji hambeNya klu Dia tau kite x mampu nak hadapinye...

sudah terang lagek bersuloh.....tepok dade tny slere....msg2 ade bahagian msg2...cube terime kenyataan yg itu tlh belaku ats kite.....dan itu bkn utk kite......

how i wish i could replace u dears...igt...family n kwn2 kte maseh ade dcc kte....pk kan mase dpan kte yg maseh jauh....kdg2 ape yg kte hrp...rancang...Allah x makbulkan..sbb Allah dah aturkan yg lebey baek utk kte...

"Cinta sejati adalah apabila kita masih mampu tersenyum untuknya apabila melihat kebahagiaan yang dimilikinya.."


a fren sent me this tru text msg when i was down n felt hopeless.....thx!

Aku minta pd Tuhan setangkai bunga, Ia beri kaktus bduri...
aku minta kupu2, diberi ulat berbulu....
aku sedih n keciwa...namun kemudian.....
kaktus itu berbunga indah skali, dan ulat itu pon menjd kupu2 yg cantek....
itulah jln TUHAN..indah pd msnye....
ALLAH tdk mmberi ape yg kte harapkan, ttp Dia mmberi ape yg kte perlukan...
Kkdg kte sedih, keciwa, terluka....ttp jauh d ats sgalenye....
Dia tlh mengatur yg terbaek dlm kehidupan kte.....

wahai shbt2ku....

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quick msg

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cukupla aku sewel sorg...jgn la korg sume pon sewel same....buat sesuatu pk dlu....mase dpan jauh lagek....br jek umo 24....jgn nyesal gaban bile da umo 42...mmg akan belaku penyesalan dlm idop kite..tp....cube jdkan pengalaman parents kte sbg tauladan n sempadan......parents kite mesti nakkan yg terbaek utk kite.....wpon kdg2 diorg kate die xkesah kte nak buat ape....deep inside...diorg tetap risaukan kte...PLEASE!!!

everything...anything yg korg buat......think in depth....PLEASE!!

aku remind korg..so next time u'll remind me......xsume yg kte buat @ pk tuh betol....kdg kite xnmpk impact nye skang...think of our family too...n rakan2 yg laen...jgn sampai kte idop tanpe restu dr parents...kbhgiaan xkn kekal lame...mcm tuh gak klu kite bine kebhagiaan tuh berpasakkan batu nisan org laen...xde sekumin niat pon nak halang korg buat pape..........tp fikir betol2!!! PLEASE!!!!

aku syg korg sume...please keep me in ur prayers!!



thx 4 ur time...