kinda....

hmm....sudden question dr seorg shbt td....

die tny ape rsnye when aku dpt msg dr c bunguks on d 1st time after die da skian lame mendiamkan diri.....

a bit sympathy...since she never feels d way org laen penah rase..bersyukor gak..allah bg aku lalui mcm2..so aku tau ape rsnye

tp die xpnah....quite pity for her,,,,

heartache...

ntah kali ke berape ntah kan...aku try.....nape ssh sgt???
ke sbb ape yg aku mimpi slame neh yg buat aku ssh nak let it go....mengapekah aku diuji begini....sbb aku penah lupekan maha penciptakah???astaghfirullah al azim...

stiap kali solat aku mohon pd allah..smoge aku kuat hadapi sume neh....aku kembalikan smule ape yg aku x mampu tanggung....mase dpan yg xde penghujung.....

or maybe mase dpan aku mmg bkn utk berdue...so soon to tell.......

tatkale kwn2 hepi...so envy them...smoge mrk kekal bahgie ke akhir hayat....

amin....

sedey

strikes me again.......

agak sedey...ke aku yg emo lebey.....tatkale cube mencari rakan2 utk melepaskan prasaan yg dah mcm tuuuttt....

sume sebok...understood....sume org ade ceritera idop sdiri...stop relying org len wahai hani.....
mcm shitttt.....airmate neh nak kua gak...p la mam.....

okeh fine....i'll go my own way!!!! pegi la jahanam ngan sesape pon...org leh buat...xkan aku xleh....tp kalu aku buat..start kate x igt kwn....dah lupe kwn...sape lupe sape...maseng2 dah ade bf kannnnn.......idop la korg bedue!! bole x jgn cr aku lagek...???? tang ssh pandai cr aku..bile sng,,?? reason..?? cam stupid....

mmg korg x pandai jage ati org....so..xperlu aku blaja jage ati korg!!!

rindu.,...

woaaaa.....lame tdk memblog dri....sgt sibuk hingge xde mase utk diri sdiri...

wutd happened to my social life..???? erk...perkare yg harus ditelan setlh bekerje......

my education life..???? "hanging intention"..huhu...still bergelut dgn kompius nye lagek..aduyai..

lately...i dont know y...but seems getting so far away from Allah...astaghfirullah....knape hani jd camneh...?

maybe neh la sbb nye byk masalah aku yg xleh slesai2 lagek neh...........Allah nak uji aku.....smoge aku tabah n dipermudahkan ujian ini....

still on my he-tox mode.....ssh betol la......almost a year....tp xleh nak lpskan...wuts wrong wit me????? i should give myself a dateline instead!! br ar ade objektive dlm idop....mengapekah..oh mengapekah.......

lonely..alone...loner...

mmg x kesah idop single...wut to rush...? bknnye sok akunak kawen...tp kdg2 terdetik gak utk bermanje...euuwwww.....haha......ade skali tuh..trase sgt lonely bile nak kua..but no one was there for me....sume sebok..either wit family or their syg's...huhu....ade skali tuh jgak...lebey sadis rsnye...tatkale aku tbe sorg2 jek kat table tuh yg xde teman berckp.... "the couple" tgh berckp dgn satu same laen...d boys bedue tuh plak berborak sesame diorg...aku??? was left alone.......nxt time....i will not allow myself to be in that situation again...

kne cr sesuatu yg boleh dilakukan sdiri jgak ar....xleh rely kat org...kne biasekan diri idop bujang...nak harapkan kwn2 pon xleh.....diorg adekehidupan sdiri..sampai bile ko nak sesakkan diorg ngan merepek ko tuh hani?????

tp.......maseh trase ketidak adilan pd dri ini...mengape tegar nye ko !!! huikkkh.......tensiii!!!!

catitan..hukhuk

uwaaa......keje keje keje....

itulah idop aku skang.....i made my decision...i chose my path....deal with it hani... terganggu rencana n kehidupan sosialku...oh tdk....daku tua sblm waktuku......hukhuk.....

idop dikelilingi lelaki...tp xde sorg pon yg leh blah..hansem pon prangai cam aremmmmm.....

xpe hani...Allah lebey mengetahui susun jalur idopmu.....

listen to ur heart!!!

kesibukan attacked!!!

suda spt org gile kini....time tdo beterabor.....mkn xtentu...letey....

mase blaja dulu pon xde ar sebok camneh...naseb pendtg baru la kan....da la bukan line aku pon...was shoecked at first bile introduce diri jek most people asked...."amek engineering ke dolu?"....make diri tertny2..apekah yg akan ditempuhi mendtg ini....

totally out of my league!!hahaha....crashed dlm pale otak neh..sume kene sedut within in short period of time....smoge dpt la kulakukan sume ini dgn baek.....

things has changed....me n d environment.....huwaaa.......

tp kan....save minyak keter....umah dkt jek...30 hengget leh tahan hampir seminggu...depends pd pecutan ar kan....br la kumengerti keindahan rumah dkt ngan tempt keje...byk leh save...

tp gaji dpt sket jek dis month..sbb masok tgh bulan...aiyak...saketnye.....utang byk lagek neh.....bband harus dibyr...dsbnye....mujur tinggal umah family...

tp sampi bile nak pama payung...hani da bsr kan....u should be on ur on feet rite now.....sigh.....

smoge allah menjawab sgale persoalanku dan rintihan ku...ya allah...istajib dua' ana......

jauh...caramel

Pernah ada,
rasa cinta,
antara kita,
kini tinggal kenangan.

  Ingin ku lupakan,
  semua tentang diri mu,
  namun bayang mu,
  s’lalu ada dalam setiap, langkah ku.

Jauh kau pergi meninggalkan diri ku,
disini aku, merindukan diri mu.
Kini ku coba mencari pengganti mu,
namun tak lagi,
‘kan seperti diri mu oh kekasih.

i should accept d fate by now........i should stop seeing him by now........

tp xleh selfish.....kwn2 aku...kwn2 die......or maybe....i should stop seeing sume org......

but dats not me...xleh idop tanpe diorg.....d worst....xleh idop tanpe beliau...which ....i suppose not to think about.....

hani boleh!!!!!