"i'm a big big girl..in a big big world..."

haha...hengat lagek ke korg lagu tuh....inspirational utk org2 cam aku, alyn n anis...muahahaha

da tue da aku...eh silap...maken matang adlh term yg plg sesuai!!! blm masok golongan warge emas..so i'm still young ok~~...as usual if kwn2 remember le kan...tiap kali bday aku..i'll make some note psl idopku....dolu2 kat frenster n tmpt laen....tp since last year smaken active ngan fb neh jek...dftr da lame...tp lps "jumpe" cokmot....melekat lak ngan fb.....haha

thx for all ur wishes n prayers ye kwn2...sape nak bace leh bace dgn sabar....xde paksaan....note kali neh quite long jgak...

~~ idopku dr 3rd july 2008 - 3rd july 2009 ~~

betuah aku lahir time neh sbb every time aku nye bday jek...sume org tgh cuti sem agik..so aku xde la jd bhn prank shbt2 yg diketuai oleh shira jenglot.....tp last year die maken baek ar...maklumle....jeng3....

so aku slmt le...alhamdulillah.....tiade bendasing2 yg hinggap kat tubuh ini...wahaha...taun lps time2 camneh cam nebes2 sket sbb da masok final sem...cam xcaye jek aku da nak habeh blaja...xsangke pon masok U... UNIC!! wakaka..cam ape jek....

seronok knal ngan rakan2 seumah 44 & 44A .....umah shark n d geng aku xtau lak no brape..sowee...aku x nyesal join korg dok lua...maklumle....lebey mudah utk pulang kerumah ku saban minggu...huuuuuu....barbecue.."karaoke"....giggling.....prank(wpon aku slalu kene)....masaking(aku tukang habehkan mknn tuh)....part yg aku xleh lupe...mase kte wat poco2 dlm umah n games ("gunakanlah bhs kebangsaan kita") ...huhu..rindu nak bedtime story ngan ina.....patotla skang aku ssh nak tdo....anis prsn jek mate aku ade "airbag".....wahahahah....ampun nis!! kasi can ar eh...aku igt agik kua memlm g mcd ke..mapley ke sbb nak cr mkn..wpon org kate area tuh "keras"..niat kte baek..so gagahkan jue melalui onak duri...haha

dgn bdk2 claz pon best...wpon ade suke duke yg besh n x besh...lumrah kehidupan kan....da lps sume tuh pon...n i miss all dat!!! hmmm....waktu blaja dlu...kjayaan aku, shira n rkn2 laen sume bgantung kpd elin...krn die kami bejaye....sbb sume fotostat nota yg die buat...sng..tulisan die beso2...pandai die buat note kan....i don know whether i can make it in future!! tuh la...xnk buat sdiri...padan muke hani....mls betol nak study...kenangan d pangkor n perhentian xdpt dilupekan....mase neh la sume maken rapat...dgn claz laen lak tuh...heeee....maklumle..muke x malu..join jekkkk.....pastuh bile berpisah..sedey nak mampos...aku kan ratu airmate lps nira n amal...wahaha

on december 2008....g langkawi...besh...since tuh sume get along blk ngan mmbr2 mase zmn skolah dlu...besh3...(gdah + kari, ecah + asrul < ;P >, hasnan + sara, n fairuz)......mase tuh mmg best..sume sekepale...sedey gak yg len x dpt ikot...tgk ar nnt..klu ade rezki kte plan 4 nxt trip ok!! erk...sape nak plan?? xpe..lmbt lagek..abaikan.........

skang kene keje....mase utk tdk terlalu bersuke rie spt dulu...sgt tdk mmpunyai mase utk diri sdiri kdg2...packed gile...bak kate kwn2 la kan..ssh nak jumpe aku cam kalah menteri...ye ar..dato seri najib nak jumpe aku pon buat appoimen...apetah lagek kamu rkn2ku!!...hahahaha...eventho aku xde feel pon ngan keje skang neh...i'm trying to look at d bright side of life la kan..maybe ade hikmahnye akan dtg...insyaAllah.....n starting nxt week i'll start with claz....student life again...only this time will be different...way different dr student life dolu...sbb kwn2 da laen...xtau larat ke x neh....ulang alik sane..hopefully Allah will gives me strength n dipermudahkan sgale urusan....

~my love life~ (if rase xnk bace da sile clik "home")

only 2 men yg gegarkan idop aku....d rest tuh anak2 ikan cam bak kate ecah la kan...

aisey..malu lak nak sentuh bab neh...tp rsnye mostly tau kan. i'm like an open book..so....teroskan jek la....korg igt x dolu2 camne aku masok air ngan sorg mamat neh..yg aku da "crashed" kat die ever since i was in form 2....no name will be stated...mengaibkan aku sdiri nnt....wakaka....tp since aku kembali berhubungan mase aku dlm sem 2..ye ar...lps pts hubungan skian lame...in terms of kwn le yek..bkn "in relationship" punye term tuh ok...ya allah....rakan2 serumah n my close fren yg nmpk camne aku kan....hahah.....sanggup tdo kol 3-4 pg....gile punye keje...org gile pon x buat keje camneh....n plg dasyat mase sblm n slps raye taun lps.....hahahaha..blushing maut mase die dtg umah..kwn2 yg nmpk dok gelak2 jek kan...bangek betol..tp..he juz so not for me..wpon bkn dlm golongan plastic n romeo(hes not gay ok)...too kind.....too smart...too "rich"...too good to be true for me....but i don mind....ssh nak cr laki cam die...n too hard to catch too....bkn aku jek....pompuan laen pon...wakakaka..pdn muke diorg...ngan aku skali la...he deserves sumone rather wayyy better than me..wish his happiness n jodoh yg setanding dgnnye....amin....

not forget to mention...my relationship....he'll not gonna read this btw...so..WTH...he was from my past..n he came back into my life again..sblm neh i'm ok jek ngan die..leh bedepan dgn die n accepted kte as kwn ..no problem pon....sigh....yg indah hny sementare..(aku rase cam ade lirik lagu neh)...continue..hard to accept at 1st dat he wanted me back...thinking dat past was juz an "immature" mistakes...so okay...n sy ikhlas menerimenye..spt dulu juge..bile suda bersame beliau..sy tlh melupekan en "crush" itu..tdk baek mmpunyai 2 insan d dlm ati kan..en "crush" juge menjelme ktk sy sdg blaja...so ok jek...then melupekan en "crush" kembali dgn mudah apb kembali bersame beliau...too bad it wasn't long...juz bcoz of a stupid mistakes...without any "hearing, trial n appeal(pe2 jek la)"...then...goodbye senorita! he approached me..then he left me....i got dumb!! n yeah...4 d second time!!..haha....banggenye..! saddest part..perhubungan ngan kwn2 laen pon renggang...spatutnye tdk terjadi...he made his choice..."runaway" was d best!! wish for his happiness too n jodoh yg berkekalan as he wished for!! "hanye ko, aku dgn Allah je tahu"....nicely done!!

i know dat i have lots of kekurangan pd diri ini....thx so much 4 ur fake luv promises n everything dat u hv showered me....bjaye melakonkan watak yg hebat...maseh terigt ade sorg lectrr penah advice kat whole claz...nak tau sape future psgn kte...tgk cermin n lihat sape kite....Allah akan bg yg setanding dgnnye...(mcm pencuri akan dpt la dgn kaki pencuri gak sort of camtuh le..)...i was thought dat u were like my mirror 4 things dat make us comfortable 2gether..tp x rupenye...adelah hikmah yg Allah bg d sblk kjadian ini.....insyaAllah...

i got lessons learned.....nvr to trust or accept man/gal yg dumb his/her other half for u....eventually they'll go back n left u "tekapai2 kelemasan"....lebey baek ku memuje(bkn maksudnye puje mende2 slaen Allah ye....harap maklum) insan2 yg sy tau xkn dpt...tdk saket hati apb melihat beliau berbahagie dgn insan laen....i'm juz a nornal person....kejahatan n iblis sentiase berbisik kat tlinge...wpon cube dijauhkan....i'm juz asking utk menjage ati dgn tdk menunjuk2 kamu sdg berbahagie berkaseh syg ant satu same laen...org da kawen pon x kecoh camtuh!! ye la kan..sbb blm kawen...tuh yg kecoh lebey...oh yea...org yg spatutnye tdk membace ini....pedulik ape sy...

~ frens' love life ~

sonok tgk mane2 kwn yg bersame2 neh...hehe...ade yg da kawen!! (tahniah!)....ade yg nak dpt baby da....ade yg da dpt baby pon ade....besh2.....sonoknyeeeee.....kwn2 yg goyah tp elok balek pon ade...gud!! n yg senaseb dgn ku pon ade....maybe sbb tuh la kite berkwn baek!!!! hahaha...xleh lupe ayat alyn....tp part yg kuciwe....kwn tikam blakang....xspatutnye belaku...ko ngan die kwn kot...sampai ati ko kan????? huh....aku lak yg emo lebey....Allah maha mengetahui n maha adil....tdk skarang.. d "sane" kite tuntut.....(huh...igt lagek kate2 adi lps kak zura sepak kucen dlu...scary!)

there goes mu ups n downs....ade byk lagek...but neh ant highlights jek kot...wahaha..

enough for today.......akan dtg hopefully will be nicer stories ...hahaha......thx 4 ur time!!!!
mmmmmuuuuuuuaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh.... "hugz"