al feninun....

xtau nak coretkan ape...

juz sdkt ttg ape yg terjd semlm sket n arinih sket....

last nite...around 1 am ke 2 am ntah... couldn't sleep...mcm hape ntah...suddenly all past memories played dlm pale otak neh...sgt ssh la camneh...then i texted ecah...asked her about "raye msg" from beliau.....die x dpt upenye..but name die included dlm list yg disebutkan di dlm msg tsbt..maybe ter missed la kot...then....torrent of tears tbe2 jek kua ble ecah reply msg aku....sgt terharu dgn kate2 ecah...xsangke die leh berkate demikian...i was thaught she'll responding differently....alhamdulillah....tp....kate2nye sgt meruntun jiwe....wish d situation is way better than ape yg dsangke n terjadi...but i'll never set a mountain of hope again...sigh..

today/tonite....

d whole day spent dgn mmbersihkan umah mane yg patut.....abah tahan tinge jek la kne basi2 ngan kitorg..n menahan mate melihat byk brg yg perlu dibuang...nak buat camne...kesan drp kehidupan beliau sms kecil menjadikn beliau sgt syg pd sume bende yg ade....umah da mcm store da....

then pd sblah mlmnye...jiwe sy meronte utk klua menghirup udare mlm....hukhuk....mmg ade hajat sbenanye...2 pkr!!! 1 tuh tepakse ditangguhkan sbb x cukup kroni....xdpt dilaksanekan....so mmberi pluang kpd sarah berjumpe dgn suami tersyg....heeeeeeee

decided kua ngan jidah instead.....lucky die free...oo yeah!! syg plak ecah xde...mencari nafkah buat kuarge....hehe......aku pleaded jidah bykkkk kali utk tlg aku...bende mudah jek....delete all my msgs yg tertere name beliau.....sudah tdk mau menyimpan lagek....jidah plak x sanggup....klu aku kuat aku da buat sdiri...tp klu aku terbace msg2 tuh...mslh akan memkn diri.....jidah kate syg nk delete....nak buat hape syg.......pkr yg tlh berlalu biarkan....yg akan dtg...biarkan dtg sdiri dgn pkr2 baru plak.....slagek msg2 bunguks tuh ade.....spt menyimpan harapan utk kembali.....xmau sume tuh...sgt menyakitkan hati.....tensi rasenye...sob...hope sara leh buat pasneh....xthn lagek rsnyeee

oh.....asgmnt maseh byk tertangguh...malas utk melakukannye....kdgkale terbit d hati utk membiarkan diri mengambilnye smule pd smester hdpn!!!!!bagaimanakah!!!! isk.......