wahai shbt2ku....

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cukupla aku sewel sorg...jgn la korg sume pon sewel same....buat sesuatu pk dlu....mase dpan jauh lagek....br jek umo 24....jgn nyesal gaban bile da umo 42...mmg akan belaku penyesalan dlm idop kite..tp....cube jdkan pengalaman parents kte sbg tauladan n sempadan......parents kite mesti nakkan yg terbaek utk kite.....wpon kdg2 diorg kate die xkesah kte nak buat ape....deep inside...diorg tetap risaukan kte...PLEASE!!!

everything...anything yg korg buat......think in depth....PLEASE!!

aku remind korg..so next time u'll remind me......xsume yg kte buat @ pk tuh betol....kdg kite xnmpk impact nye skang...think of our family too...n rakan2 yg laen...jgn sampai kte idop tanpe restu dr parents...kbhgiaan xkn kekal lame...mcm tuh gak klu kite bine kebhagiaan tuh berpasakkan batu nisan org laen...xde sekumin niat pon nak halang korg buat pape..........tp fikir betol2!!! PLEASE!!!!

aku syg korg sume...please keep me in ur prayers!!



thx 4 ur time...

when i should do sumthing else!!!

gals.....n guys...(klu ade)

tlh lame rsnye dat person bediam diri neh......pe slh kte sbenanye???? how on earth we would know klu x diberitau..... kite bknnye tukang tilik yg hebat...jauh lagek waris nujum pak belalang.....tho we knew wut happened kan....

juz let Allah decides ape yg jd sterusnye.....we know where we stand...n for wut for kannnn....

we dont judge people....tp sdiri mmbuke pekung di dade....wut else can we do..we trust dat person sgt2...die we overly reacted ?? x kn..??? hahaha

"slimut" xleh pakai.....tp nak buang trase syg....byk da berbakti....sigh

windu kwn2 claz dolu......mase dok umah komander...c tmah ade....mase dok lua...elin ade.....skang sape pon xde.... :(( .... aku asyik lost jek..i was thinking 2 drop out..n keep thinking..letey la ulang alik....skt bdn...saket ati....skt kpale....skt poket!! wakakaka


shira jgn mara ek..aku anta mms gamba dolu2 tu....tuh mase kte prank bday anis n nira rsnye.....ina yg forward kat aku dlu...sgt "jelite" kte waktu tuh...wakakakakakaka......

.berusehe keras utk menjayekan mlm tersebut....dtmbh pule dgn air "coke" yg sgt sdp!!

oh ye nis....aku br prsn notes yg ko letak dlm my diary...tekiu so much utk kate2 itu....!! luv ya!
xoxoxo
i told u didn't i...? hahaha ....u met him for good kan kelmaren....mcm mase aku klh betting ngan elin (yg korg 1 umah kerumun aku tuh)..... mcm wake up call utk kte.... ade hikmahnye... insyaAllah....

penat tp hepi...ngeeeeee

last nite was awful n hectic.....lame aku x g claz...suddenly masok2 jek cam kne electric shock..gegegegege....

blk quite late...tp klua ngan mmbr xde lak penat kan...kol 12 pon cam br kol 9...huh....beza sungguh...feels so different as i entered d clazroom.....many people yet feels empty....few faces dat i knew still .................... almost bring tears to my eyes....lucky....i don't......

d hepi part..

mimah called tetibe..kate nak jumpe..since dlm claz agik die msg...tp lupe nak reply lak....isk...aku igtkan die nak bg kad kawen....sbb sgt tbe2 kannnnnnn....mimah2......

upenye die bg bday cake...uwaaa...terharu...n

die wish blated bday.....(control airmate hani)....2 pieces lak tuh...die soh buat pilihan...kot2 aku x mkn...... blueberry cheese n choc indulgence.....korg tau je la aku mkn yg mn kan....

kitorg borak2 sat d bwh pokok bunge ketas mak aku....mimah...as always....ayat2 die sume buat aku nak gelak maut...thx..die mcm2 tau2 jek aku windu die..

received few good news....things aren't all bad jek kan.....Allah maha mengetahui...

........anis n elins.....juz can't hold d tears to fall....thx for missing me n ur words at ym td deeply touches my heart ...thx.....

pasca bday...huahuahua

thannnnnkkkkkkkksssssssss sgt2 kat kekawan yg wish bday aku k!!!

yg call tgh2 mlm tuh....n msgs....ssh2 korg jek jage sampai lewat mlm...padehal da ganggu time tdo korg...terharu!! started dgn sara yg called..then elin n noe..then byt...continue plak esok pgnye...teringin nak list sume yg wish...tp ramai sgt....huhu...korg tau le sape korg kan....!!tp plg advance adlh ecah azli...die wish aku a day before....camne la die leh slh letak reminder...xkn bday aku sdiri aku xtau plak...huhu.....xpe..thx
ecah......

thx gak pade sesape yg wish kat fb....byk gak kan...xkesah la..wish slmt hari tue pon..nnt korg tue gak kannnnnn...huhu

surprised gile mase dtg opis pg td (padehal lmbt masok opis...maklumle mslh aku yg same dr dolu....akibat mkn pedas n black pepper berlebihan..mnjd pencinte toilet yg sejati)....sambel susun cable....tetibe opis gelap...wahhhh....diorg nyanyi "hepi bday"...patotle nonie n cah tetibe tau bday aku....tp nonie sgt tdk pandai cover line....seb baek diorg x drag lakonan diorg sampai ptg...klu x sure da bocor rahsie..ngehngeh...tekiu!!

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dlm msg2 yg dihantar oleh rkn2 sgt mengharukan prasaan ku...huhu....syg diorg kat aku upenye...wahaha....ayat sadis....mlm td lak....ina, anis n elin insisted nak jumpe mlm neh...konon ade urgent matter...cet....mmg la ade mende penting pon...terharu bile diorg kuakan cake n bday card...wahaha...elin kate tuh cheese cake.... :(....saje jek die nak dera emosi aku...wahaha....emosi la sgt...dgn berbaju kurung aku g...saje jek temankan ina..kang ksiaan lak die sorg jek yg pakai bj kurung kannn

after we had our dinner.....ade confession session....huh...nebes aku dibuatnye...ade gak a few moments yg quite tegang..tears n laughter silih berganti......tp alhamdulillah....went on smoothly....n hopefully xde pape yg keroh lagek between both of "u" ok!!......

mase pulang pule...story telling lak wit d gals....so sad mengenangkan perkare yg belaku...hmm....sgt tdk sangke...mengape perlu berlaku demikian....so frustrating...upsets n disappointing...xmengape la...Allah maha adil....

thank u again to those yg wish...sgt berterime kaseh...smoge Allah merahmati idop kalian!!!

mmmuaahhhh.......

"i'm a big big girl..in a big big world..."

haha...hengat lagek ke korg lagu tuh....inspirational utk org2 cam aku, alyn n anis...muahahaha

da tue da aku...eh silap...maken matang adlh term yg plg sesuai!!! blm masok golongan warge emas..so i'm still young ok~~...as usual if kwn2 remember le kan...tiap kali bday aku..i'll make some note psl idopku....dolu2 kat frenster n tmpt laen....tp since last year smaken active ngan fb neh jek...dftr da lame...tp lps "jumpe" cokmot....melekat lak ngan fb.....haha

thx for all ur wishes n prayers ye kwn2...sape nak bace leh bace dgn sabar....xde paksaan....note kali neh quite long jgak...

~~ idopku dr 3rd july 2008 - 3rd july 2009 ~~

betuah aku lahir time neh sbb every time aku nye bday jek...sume org tgh cuti sem agik..so aku xde la jd bhn prank shbt2 yg diketuai oleh shira jenglot.....tp last year die maken baek ar...maklumle....jeng3....

so aku slmt le...alhamdulillah.....tiade bendasing2 yg hinggap kat tubuh ini...wahaha...taun lps time2 camneh cam nebes2 sket sbb da masok final sem...cam xcaye jek aku da nak habeh blaja...xsangke pon masok U... UNIC!! wakaka..cam ape jek....

seronok knal ngan rakan2 seumah 44 & 44A .....umah shark n d geng aku xtau lak no brape..sowee...aku x nyesal join korg dok lua...maklumle....lebey mudah utk pulang kerumah ku saban minggu...huuuuuu....barbecue.."karaoke"....giggling.....prank(wpon aku slalu kene)....masaking(aku tukang habehkan mknn tuh)....part yg aku xleh lupe...mase kte wat poco2 dlm umah n games ("gunakanlah bhs kebangsaan kita") ...huhu..rindu nak bedtime story ngan ina.....patotla skang aku ssh nak tdo....anis prsn jek mate aku ade "airbag".....wahahahah....ampun nis!! kasi can ar eh...aku igt agik kua memlm g mcd ke..mapley ke sbb nak cr mkn..wpon org kate area tuh "keras"..niat kte baek..so gagahkan jue melalui onak duri...haha

dgn bdk2 claz pon best...wpon ade suke duke yg besh n x besh...lumrah kehidupan kan....da lps sume tuh pon...n i miss all dat!!! hmmm....waktu blaja dlu...kjayaan aku, shira n rkn2 laen sume bgantung kpd elin...krn die kami bejaye....sbb sume fotostat nota yg die buat...sng..tulisan die beso2...pandai die buat note kan....i don know whether i can make it in future!! tuh la...xnk buat sdiri...padan muke hani....mls betol nak study...kenangan d pangkor n perhentian xdpt dilupekan....mase neh la sume maken rapat...dgn claz laen lak tuh...heeee....maklumle..muke x malu..join jekkkk.....pastuh bile berpisah..sedey nak mampos...aku kan ratu airmate lps nira n amal...wahaha

on december 2008....g langkawi...besh...since tuh sume get along blk ngan mmbr2 mase zmn skolah dlu...besh3...(gdah + kari, ecah + asrul < ;P >, hasnan + sara, n fairuz)......mase tuh mmg best..sume sekepale...sedey gak yg len x dpt ikot...tgk ar nnt..klu ade rezki kte plan 4 nxt trip ok!! erk...sape nak plan?? xpe..lmbt lagek..abaikan.........

skang kene keje....mase utk tdk terlalu bersuke rie spt dulu...sgt tdk mmpunyai mase utk diri sdiri kdg2...packed gile...bak kate kwn2 la kan..ssh nak jumpe aku cam kalah menteri...ye ar..dato seri najib nak jumpe aku pon buat appoimen...apetah lagek kamu rkn2ku!!...hahahaha...eventho aku xde feel pon ngan keje skang neh...i'm trying to look at d bright side of life la kan..maybe ade hikmahnye akan dtg...insyaAllah.....n starting nxt week i'll start with claz....student life again...only this time will be different...way different dr student life dolu...sbb kwn2 da laen...xtau larat ke x neh....ulang alik sane..hopefully Allah will gives me strength n dipermudahkan sgale urusan....

~my love life~ (if rase xnk bace da sile clik "home")

only 2 men yg gegarkan idop aku....d rest tuh anak2 ikan cam bak kate ecah la kan...

aisey..malu lak nak sentuh bab neh...tp rsnye mostly tau kan. i'm like an open book..so....teroskan jek la....korg igt x dolu2 camne aku masok air ngan sorg mamat neh..yg aku da "crashed" kat die ever since i was in form 2....no name will be stated...mengaibkan aku sdiri nnt....wakaka....tp since aku kembali berhubungan mase aku dlm sem 2..ye ar...lps pts hubungan skian lame...in terms of kwn le yek..bkn "in relationship" punye term tuh ok...ya allah....rakan2 serumah n my close fren yg nmpk camne aku kan....hahah.....sanggup tdo kol 3-4 pg....gile punye keje...org gile pon x buat keje camneh....n plg dasyat mase sblm n slps raye taun lps.....hahahaha..blushing maut mase die dtg umah..kwn2 yg nmpk dok gelak2 jek kan...bangek betol..tp..he juz so not for me..wpon bkn dlm golongan plastic n romeo(hes not gay ok)...too kind.....too smart...too "rich"...too good to be true for me....but i don mind....ssh nak cr laki cam die...n too hard to catch too....bkn aku jek....pompuan laen pon...wakakaka..pdn muke diorg...ngan aku skali la...he deserves sumone rather wayyy better than me..wish his happiness n jodoh yg setanding dgnnye....amin....

not forget to mention...my relationship....he'll not gonna read this btw...so..WTH...he was from my past..n he came back into my life again..sblm neh i'm ok jek ngan die..leh bedepan dgn die n accepted kte as kwn ..no problem pon....sigh....yg indah hny sementare..(aku rase cam ade lirik lagu neh)...continue..hard to accept at 1st dat he wanted me back...thinking dat past was juz an "immature" mistakes...so okay...n sy ikhlas menerimenye..spt dulu juge..bile suda bersame beliau..sy tlh melupekan en "crush" itu..tdk baek mmpunyai 2 insan d dlm ati kan..en "crush" juge menjelme ktk sy sdg blaja...so ok jek...then melupekan en "crush" kembali dgn mudah apb kembali bersame beliau...too bad it wasn't long...juz bcoz of a stupid mistakes...without any "hearing, trial n appeal(pe2 jek la)"...then...goodbye senorita! he approached me..then he left me....i got dumb!! n yeah...4 d second time!!..haha....banggenye..! saddest part..perhubungan ngan kwn2 laen pon renggang...spatutnye tdk terjadi...he made his choice..."runaway" was d best!! wish for his happiness too n jodoh yg berkekalan as he wished for!! "hanye ko, aku dgn Allah je tahu"....nicely done!!

i know dat i have lots of kekurangan pd diri ini....thx so much 4 ur fake luv promises n everything dat u hv showered me....bjaye melakonkan watak yg hebat...maseh terigt ade sorg lectrr penah advice kat whole claz...nak tau sape future psgn kte...tgk cermin n lihat sape kite....Allah akan bg yg setanding dgnnye...(mcm pencuri akan dpt la dgn kaki pencuri gak sort of camtuh le..)...i was thought dat u were like my mirror 4 things dat make us comfortable 2gether..tp x rupenye...adelah hikmah yg Allah bg d sblk kjadian ini.....insyaAllah...

i got lessons learned.....nvr to trust or accept man/gal yg dumb his/her other half for u....eventually they'll go back n left u "tekapai2 kelemasan"....lebey baek ku memuje(bkn maksudnye puje mende2 slaen Allah ye....harap maklum) insan2 yg sy tau xkn dpt...tdk saket hati apb melihat beliau berbahagie dgn insan laen....i'm juz a nornal person....kejahatan n iblis sentiase berbisik kat tlinge...wpon cube dijauhkan....i'm juz asking utk menjage ati dgn tdk menunjuk2 kamu sdg berbahagie berkaseh syg ant satu same laen...org da kawen pon x kecoh camtuh!! ye la kan..sbb blm kawen...tuh yg kecoh lebey...oh yea...org yg spatutnye tdk membace ini....pedulik ape sy...

~ frens' love life ~

sonok tgk mane2 kwn yg bersame2 neh...hehe...ade yg da kawen!! (tahniah!)....ade yg nak dpt baby da....ade yg da dpt baby pon ade....besh2.....sonoknyeeeee.....kwn2 yg goyah tp elok balek pon ade...gud!! n yg senaseb dgn ku pon ade....maybe sbb tuh la kite berkwn baek!!!! hahaha...xleh lupe ayat alyn....tp part yg kuciwe....kwn tikam blakang....xspatutnye belaku...ko ngan die kwn kot...sampai ati ko kan????? huh....aku lak yg emo lebey....Allah maha mengetahui n maha adil....tdk skarang.. d "sane" kite tuntut.....(huh...igt lagek kate2 adi lps kak zura sepak kucen dlu...scary!)

there goes mu ups n downs....ade byk lagek...but neh ant highlights jek kot...wahaha..

enough for today.......akan dtg hopefully will be nicer stories ...hahaha......thx 4 ur time!!!!
mmmmmuuuuuuuaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh.... "hugz"

shit happens...

sumthing to share ngan kwn2 la ek...aku cam nak betau sume org...tp sume dok merate..letey nak call sorg2....huhu

my day started dgn menjempot cik amalina d rumah beliau...bernaseb baek kali ini krn berjaye mendptkan khidmat beliau tatkale kesempitan kehidopan......haha....all

ah je la yg tau seksenye nk dptkan die mase ahad lps......tdo mampos minah neh.....seb baek kali neh die maseh idop...lalu menuju ke opis utk penghantaraan brg sbentar......saket kpale coz everywhere fullybooked!!! betau aku lambat lagek en ajoy!!!!! penang cuti besar minggu itu yea!!! ok..abaikan!

strusnye menuju ke puncak....slesai!.... mencari RHB yg entah d mane....upenye d sinunnnn......trime kaseh kpd elin & kwn elin *_*.......slesai!........pegi mkn pule.....spt biase...mslh aku adlh utk mimilih arah tuju utk mkn...hak3...nak buek camno...dolu2 shira yg decidekan nak mkn katne xpon ina....final decision - pak munawer's again......blasah ar....mkn punye mkn dgn alyn.........da habes + borak2 + isap okok + minom + gossips .....nak blah g induk...tang nak byr neh yg aku jd sewel sat......ya allah...menggelabah gile td...igtkan aku x bwk purse...mampos...dak alyn plak kbetulan lom cocok.......dlm pale otak aku da kene tlg dak ucop tuh buat air n amek order sume da.....(pause: ucop sebok tny psl ecah kecik...nape x dtg kedai.....kang klu aku kate die ngan pian kang...hancor lak ati mamat tuh....aku senyum saje...siap soh kim slm kat ecah agik).....dgn hati yg d tngkan oleh alyn...aku cr dgn tabah purse aku....seb baek ade.......bederau darah aku.....aku letak kat tempat yg aku xpenah letak...cr psl betol hani neh......terdetik gak...klu x jumpe gak..nak jek aku call c elin......DTG SEGERE!!!! die jek yg plg dkt.....ngeh3...u r my savior elin!!!

teroskan pjlnn d induk...dgn selambe nye aku bwk alyn....sume mate memandang...shbt aku sorg neh kan daring...yeah!!! confident tuh penting!! abaikan!! persetankan mate2 yg memandang...diorg jeles sbenanye tuh.. mase neh aku sgt2 merindui byt...hahaha....biase ar aku...sesat memanjang....tuh yg sampai bwk alyn "jln2" tuh....huahuahua....trime kaseh alyn teman aku....

otw back....ade la shbt call....mentioned about "musuh dlm slimut neh", "gunting dlm lipatan"...ape lagek yg sewaktu dgnnye???.....ssh betol klu "slimut" tebal sgt n gunting tajam sgt kan......then aku n alyn started our conversation psl manusie bermuke2 neh along d way ke kl....dunno whether korg prsn psl neh or x....... mostly la kan..tp bkn sume....tp lately cam ramai jek pompuan yg ayu2....sopan2...lemah lembut(ala2 haziq dlm syurga cinta)....shantek bak bidadari.......tp syg...sampah d "dlm"nye.....d "genggam" lelaki2 yg mengejarinye.....kasihan pd lelaki2 itu...terpedaye! saddest part.....pompuan2 tuh dlm golongan shbt kite sdiri.....kite neh yg rox kapak/pisau belit/sabit etc......begitu setie....wahaha...gelis lak gune pekataan neh....WTH...nmpk kasar/bengis/kejam etc tp jujur jek.....sadly guys nvr c dat!!! huh .....kabor pndgn mate mrk,.....yelah....kecantekan mmbatasi sgalenye.... yarks! tp lumrah duinie kan.....isk...badi aku jumpe pompuan tuh semlm....gdah br sebot name pompuan tuh..tepacol lak die kat traffic lite...bangek betol..

actually....same goes ngan lelaki juge......kite nmpk guys yg org kate cam sampah masyarakat...suke kecoh2...rascal..kaki pukol....tuh la sbenanye yg leh diharapkan.......sampai ade yg muke cam gangster tp ati celine dion....oppsss!...huhu.....pastuh lelaki ala2 pious....baek.....reliable.....arammmmmm gak......sgt mudah mmperdayekan insan laen...tpu sume tuh....

dunie oh dunie......klu la ade alat yg leh trace sume tuh ala2 cam alat kesan electronic device dlm keter....penin2....simple matter tp complicated solution....camtuh ke?...~emosi jap~ diulang smule...bkn sume.....segelintir saje...tp ramai!!!

sume kite dijauhkan le dr anasir2 camneh.......

telah kuduge perkare yg akan berlaku.....sgt pandai "kamu" menjage ati kan..wpon tiade ape lagek...perluke menaekkan "perkare" begitu d khalayak ...show off!!..."kamu" pasti bertepuk & besorak kegembiraan krn berjaye saketkan ati insan laen....tahniah!!!!!! anda BERJAYE!!! niat d ati utk "mmbakar"....kini tlh "terbakar!!"

utk shbt2 yg tertikam d blkg anda....besabarlah..kelak pasti ade pembalasan....idop bagaikan roda (tp yuyue kate tayar).....mungkin skang idop kte kat bwh...tp.....

"hanye ALLAH saje yg mengetahui"

sorry seems to be d hardest word..

salam pembuke bicare....

kengkunun cam supan2 la kan....

act...sorry la sbb aku tlh merisaukan shbt2ku tempoh hari...didn't mean anything to make u gals worried dgn tibe2....it was all bcoz things dtg bertimpe2 in one day....so i was thinking by keeping me away from d world will ease me n makes me better....which was not pon......budus!! ntah dr mane aku blaja method neh...kunon nak try la... mslhnye xde la dasat mn pon....mmbr laen lagek terok mslhnye yg dhadapi...mine was juz ciput jek....tp maklumle kan...at time like this....i mean fragile stage....simple matter could turned to complicated n disaster......wahaha....sa

je jek nak exaggerate lebey sket....minggu lps pon minggu bunge raye....tp utk ben...bunge api!! extra sensitive.....

i know i shouldn't drag u gals into this......korg xde kne mengene pon....huh....cam gampang pon ade kan......sorry again....

now i'm a lot better...don;t worry ok kwn2...i know u gals concerns me as i am to u too...tdk terniat melakukan pkr tersebot...felt like i had disappointed u gals.....sorry again.....i need some time n space to digest all d inputs in my stupid brain maybe....."memory card" da kene virus agaknye....

jgn risau....aku tdk akan melakukan pkr2 yg extra stupid....korg knal aku sape n camne kannnnn...
i'm like an open book...it's up to u either to understand me n know how to read me....or don't know how read me...but aku tau mostly korg librarian kan......rujuk AACR2!!!!! aku bkn le "malaikat yg turun dr kayangan" yg perfectly born with superpowers bagai....... i need ur advice n teguran berhemah mmbine...maybe it's a true nature of youngest child ...... rely onto people! konon cam independent jek rupe....tp aram....ssh nak buat decision....lately i keep on doing things yg aku regrets jek...s***....i miss my quality sleep so much.....


redang sgt best......even tho there was unwanted memories yg appeared here n then.....haha...sengal....."devil wears prada" aku leh teke "300".....cam gampang...

sian anis sampai kne contact alyn tru fb tp no reply....minah tuh pon lame x on9....maapkan beliau yea....

thx for all ur luvs n understanding......

akhir kalam....

"hanya ALLAH yg mengetahui"....mmuah!!!! syg korg!!!